EPTI always felt that celebrating my birthday was more about other people than myself.
Intuitively, this makes absolutely no sense. But I always felt that when you realize your own existence and the day you were brought into this world, its a good time time to evaluate yourself and exactly how you came to be.
Though I'm generally an arrogant/judgmental person and a consistent hypocrite, I'm always humbled when I suddenly realize how truly incredible the world is for putting up with all the destructive shit I manage to put out in the course of a single year. I can't explain why or when this happens, it just comes out of the blue sometimes. I can be sitting in my room, driving my car, drunk at a bar, or chilling with a girl. But it happens, and it always overwhelms me. I never thought about putting any of these thoughts in writing because I knew it'd make no sense. That's why I'm writing this. (see, I make no sense)
I graduated from top 5 liberal arts college last year, managed to find a well-paying job in this shit economy, and was fortunate to have SC2 come out after school was already over. I've been fortunate enough to get banned and warned 10 times on the greatest forum on the planet, and lose my shit over petty arguments that make people question my age. I've also had a very supportive family, a great roommate, and I get to watch and participate in the growth of E-sports. My roommate's cousin works at Blizzard and gets us into Blizzcon. I also dated a girl and dumped her because I knew I was being an insensitive asshole, but doing nothing about it because I was lazy. I also tell some stories with embellishments because they sound better that way. I also talk about some things like I'm an expert even though I'm under-qualified to discuss the topic. I'm all over the fucking place.
Today is my birthday.
Today, the NBA players union de-certified, likely ending any chances of watching my favorite league this season.
Today, Coca and Byun made some stupid decisions that will have consequences that are far greater than anything they could have expected.
Today, I learned about Camilla Marschall.
But today is just another day.
Because at the end of today, the world will keep spinning, good shit and bad shit will happen, and many kind people will continue to put up with my shit and stay supportive. I'll continue to make mistakes, piss off Mods, get in stupid arguments, hint at balance whine in my posts, and raise an imaginative middle finger to people that don't see the things the way I do. I'll continue to make these mistakes because I'm still learning.
I'm working towards becoming the person I want to be... but I'm not there yet.
So as I continue this journey, I'd like to apologize to those that I offend on the way, and thank those who are kind enough to see through my immaturity and realize that I'm just another young guy and I'm far from perfect. I'm still a work in progress.
So... thanks.
