EPTI recently realized that I'm paying far too much attention to other people's lives, trying to help them (if not judge them) with whatever minor or major things. While that is not necessarily a bad thing, I have meanwhile been avoiding all the shit that I need to take care. I amaze myself sometimes. The advice I give is hardly the advice I follow. Quite bothersome at times.
Anyway, I'm in a very strange place. There are a lot of things going on in my life that are leading to potentially bad results... I want to express some of my concerns to those involved, or to those I care about, but I can't trust anyone to keep their mouths shut or not mess with these situations further. I feel like some shit is so close to the fan, you can smell the corn beef from Tuesday. I can feel my heart pounding in my chest rapidly. It's been happening more and more. I've become anxious and paranoid. Lately, just frustrated.
I don't have my own house in order and my various external environments have become concerning as well. I feel like I've lost control of my life, which is ridiculous because my own life is precisely the one thing I do have control over. I'm ill-equipped for certain scenarios and am beginning to question my ability to function as a healthy human being.
The stupid goldfish on the shelf has a string of shit coming out of its ass that's about 4 inches long. It's pink from the food coloring. It looks like he shat out his intestines. He tries to eat the snail everyday. I warned my gf if he eats the snail (which I've named Professor Snail), I will eat the fish.
The cat meows at me when I put the laser-pointer down. I pick it up and she chases it like it's cocaine. Annnnd the batteries just died. She looks up at me, pining for her little red dot. When she hears the sound of my lifting off the counter, she runs straight at me and starts meowing. Ask a cat what the meaning of life is. If it could speak, it would probably say that it just wants that red dot. Just one time.
I'm indifferent to the NBA playoffs this year. I missed all of March Madness. The last sporting event I watched was the Super Bowl. And while I watched every Mariners' game from ages seven to fifteen, I cannot watch even one full inning of baseball anymore. I still check ESPN everyday, out of habit. I find nothing I care for, and get on with my life.
I wish the NSFW Random pics that make your laugh thread was not deleted from the TL archives. That was a hilarious thread (and also horrible, I know). The SFW version is full of reposts (often reposts of things that are within 2 pages of each other) and meme macros. I like some memes, but when I read ten consecutive "poker face" panels, it's not so funny anymore. I can handle that NSFW was locked, but deleted too? The shame. The shame. And yet I still check SFW at least once a day, hoping for a little nugget of humor in my day. When I find one, I give a little smile.
Ramblings related to BW:
In the ABC Mart MSL, I feel as though Hydra's days are numbered. Mind, who remembered how to win again recently, will probably make short order of the defending champion and his uninspiring ZvT. Hydra is a great player, no doubt, but Mind is a kind of no-nonsense standard terran with good micro. He doesn't try risky builds and he's healthily aggressive. He snipes your defiler and nydus canal before you can blink. Just ask Hydra. But Hydra will be back next season, perhaps. We could use a new consistent #2 zerg in the game.
OH MY GOD the goddamn fish just at some of his shit (that's still hanging from his asshole)! The shit train is approaching 5 inches even with that bite. God I hate that thing.
Anyway, Calm will beat Zero and then face Jaedong, who lucked out by drawing Grape instead 10-gate God Horang2. Not that Horang2 would have won, but given Jaedong's ZvP these days, he could have at least put up a fight. Flash will probably beat Leta... *shrugs*... All of which will basically guarantee a ZvT final, as I think how it is that JD will play Calm and Flash will play Mind. In a perfect world, it would have been Flash vs Calm and Mind vs Jaedong, but oh well. Anyway, Flash wins the finals 3-1 in another so-so JvF affair. But it's kind of nice that we will have (pending Ro8 surprises) four MSL champions in the semifinals. I would prefer if Calm or Mind would win, because it would be nice to have another player with more than one title (other than the big 3). I would settle for Jaedong finally beating Flash in a finals (save for the NATE debacle). But what the fuck do I know. Maybe Leta will beat Grape in the finals or some shit. I would like to give props to Leta for actually beating Soulkey, something that apparently everyone is having trouble doing recently.
So a big cloud of mist shot out of the fish and now his shit train floats above him.... AND HE EATS HIS SHIT AGAIN! Oh man, I just remembered I have a camera... I should have taken it and put it in this blog. I would have been a beloved one. Next time maybe.
Well, I best be getting on with it. Some moderately serious shit is about to go down, I feel. Better prepare myself.
