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stroggos
Profile Joined February 2009
New Zealand1543 Posts
December 07 2010 07:55 GMT
#21
nice blog, you are really good at writing.
hi
OtHER-X
Profile Joined February 2005
Bulgaria79 Posts
December 07 2010 08:10 GMT
#22
Great post! I would buy your book.
Groslouser
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
France337 Posts
December 07 2010 08:49 GMT
#23
Nice read.

And just one thing: do NOT cut yourself from everyone else without being prepared to deal with the consequences. You would rapidly realize that you are not trully alone in the begining, it come after years of not speaking/seing anyone; then after that you are like a ghost, people don't see you anymore and you won't see them either.

What i mean is it is perfectly fine to spend some time alone, but being truly alone can be tough (especially in the long run).

Oh, and the people who took your book to not read it should show some respect. When someone put countless hours into writing a book, either you take and read it or you don't; their behavior is an insult to you and the efforts you did.

Good luck.
7mk
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
Germany10157 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-12-07 09:44:11
December 07 2010 09:43 GMT
#24
On December 07 2010 14:18 A3iL3r0n wrote:
Here's the advice that you probably don't want to hear: the whole blog is essentially a complaint about how you aren't good enough. Are you going to dominate your shit, or is your shit going to dominate you?

Quit making excuses and give your life some purpose. Being depressed is the "intellectual" way to give up. Don't waste time doing it.

Being an artist takes time, and your friends don't care because most people don't care about literature. You expect your friends to give a shit, but reading a book takes a lot of time, and yours probably isn't as good as one they would be hypothetically rather reading (that is, if they read at all).

If you want to ever be good, tuck away thoughts like this blog and figure out how to get better.

Not what you want to hear, and probably sounds like a flame, but most people don't give that much of a shit about anything, don't let that contaminate your thoughts though.


yea,
the question is out of those 15 people, how many read a lot of books?

I have a lot of books that are supposed to be amazing but I still find it hard to motivate myself to read them.
I do still plan on reading them but being glued to the PC, dealing with university and other things usually prevents me from doing so. I've wanted to finish game of thrones for example for like 6 months now lol.

So try not to take it personal. If I was your friend I mightve reacted the same, being like "oh fuck yeah give me that thing" and then being too lazy to read it, no matter how good.
Your book might still be great, it might suck, who knows.
beep boop
Chef
Profile Blog Joined August 2005
10810 Posts
December 07 2010 15:10 GMT
#25
On December 07 2010 16:09 Rekrul wrote:
the moment u stop desiring recognition is the moment you begin to have a chance of getting it

You know I agree with you. A person who is needy and puts pressure on people to pay attention to him or her is very often unattractive and creepy. I keep my thoughts on the inside with real-life relationships, although who is to say it doesn't seep out unconsciously. However, sometimes it's that necessary dishonesty that makes me feel like I am wasting my time. If I genuinely stopped caring I would be a different person.

I think I read a post of yours once that had an unusually apt metaphor: Life is like a powerful river and you're on a boat in it. You can steer a little, but ultimately the river controls most of your destiny.

I feel like that's pretty true.

Thanks to other people who have left comments as well. Like I said, however, I have serious ambitions to become an author and I haven't given up. Thus I don't want my internet identity where I've said tonnes of horrible things to come bite me in the butt as a gold mine of dirt making success impossible.

7mk, you are probably correct. Everyone reads the first chapter or so and tells me 'It really makes me want to read more!" but then doesn't. It's hard to tell if it's just totally ingenuous, or if it's a serious comment. My brother told me people probably think it's really personal and that they're afraid to start making connections between the book and myself. My mother uses the word 'personal' to describe it too, even though she consistently expressing commitment to reading it. I wonder how self-centred a person can be to not realise that it's far more personal for me to give them my writing than for them to read it haha. It is kind of torture when I tell someone 'don't take this until you can read it within a week (or a month if they are a slow reader)' and then I am basically left bare for several months with my manuscript floating around their houses. It makes me want to just demand them back before they lose them and cause headaches for me, but how much of a control freak would I look like then?

beep boop boop
LEGEND!! LEGEND!!
HeadhunteR
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Argentina1258 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-12-07 16:23:11
December 07 2010 16:22 GMT
#26
GET LAID that would solve your poblem of feeling so down but the rest its up to you to enjoy every little win you have in life and to set yourself a reachable goal.
in The Kong line forever
MuShu
Profile Joined March 2005
United States3223 Posts
December 07 2010 16:40 GMT
#27
I often find myself wondering the same things as you.I am one of those kids whose Asian parents told me to focus on school, and now I find myself in college, taking all these classes without ever having really thought about what I wanted to do with my life at all. I have experienced some of the most depressing times of my life in these past two years. I used to always think that I was alone in feeling like this and that is was unusual, but the more people I talk to, the more I find that I'm not alone in feeling like life can feel hopeless, it's just that people never talk about it openly often it seems.

I don't really have any advice or anything since I'm feeling really at a loss of what to do with my own life, and have a hard time expressing myself, especially through typing. I just want to say that I really resonate with your whole blog and let you know that you're not alone in your struggles with life.

And I don't know if you remember, but a long time ago you said you'd send me a copy of your first book. I haven't forgotten that, and I fully expect a copy one of these days. Heck, send me the manuscript if you'd like and I'll read it after my finals are over. I'm not a good writer by far and haven't read a whole lot, so I don't think I can give you a lot of valuable input, but I can read it carefully and give you my honest impression of it.
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