I’m a junior in the East Bay area of California. My parents are somewhat crazy ^^
OK... they aren't quite nazis.
My grades haven’t been the BEST but still aren’t awful.
And I’m super confused about where to go in life, what colleges, and Berkeley admission rates.
In any case, my last 4 years in about one blog post:
8th grade, decent grades, blah blah blah. 9th grade, doing OK, ended up getting a 3.8 first semester. HOLY SHIT SCOLIOSIS!
(And no, I didn’t break my neck or something…)
Uber scoliosis surgery, C6-T9 if you know what that means. If not Google vertebrae levels and find out. If you are too lazy to do that look at
While in uber neck brace worked to D+ on iccup, epic failed at grades. Was out of school for multiple months Et al. became administrator on Wikipedia. Learned C++. Lost all my friends :/ (Yeah, sob story) Essentially it sort of set me up for what was to come which was…
IN comes parents (yamato canon charged) pissed off because I didn’t get a 4.0 Pissed off at the best English teacher at my school for no good reason. Moving onto a tangent he now has lung cancer, and when I told them, they said that he deserves it…
I go into sophomore year and guess what. Get the new euro teacher, and everyone is cheating, and my parents are like “don’t cheat, it’s not ethically right” IN any case, he just kept on ramping up test difficulty to compensate for so many people cheating, and I got fucked. Got a 5 on the ap exam, and a B. Sort of like Usain bolt (thanks for the spelling correction) getting a B in PE. Have few good friends, everyone knows me, but nobody that well. Fail in trig, get a fail grade. Just get depressed. Go to counselor
Counselor was the opposite of above when dealing with me, but not with them…
We went in. He said, judging by your behavior you have a similar thing to PTSD, basically that I’m scared of my parents and depressed because of it. My parents get pissed, and we never go back. I have a feeling that when I left the room the counselor did something like that poster…
Summer was quite awesome, got a lot done (including SCII practice :DD) (did SAT and although I didn’t like it I absolutely rape at it, and it’s something they can’t criticize) Also built a new computer. They yelled at me because I told them it wouldn’t take long and it took 3 hours. My parents actually become somewhat more reasonable because of SAT scores. I avoid arguments. I “go to bed” early (really staying up late reading, how stupid…) Then the flak starts coming in. I only have a 4.5… so bad. I get it up to a 4.65. I’m feeling much better, getting self confidence. Then, the long trek downhill.
Starting after I started saying look mom, I’ve got this under control, you say I’m really irresponsible, but I think I can handle some more “privileges” (like a doorknob) things went downhill. She started saying how cocky I was, and how my grades would go down if I continued to be arrogant. She screamed at me, her fat flapping around her neck, while yelling ad nauseum with non sequiter. (You had rotting food in your backpack last year, you suck at life!)
She started yelling randomly. Saying I wasn’t working enough. I lost self confidence I got TF2. I just started going screw this; nobody cares about me at home. Other people at school think I’m Ivy League material, which I’m not, and my parents think I should go to community college, yet push me to go to an ivy. I played a lot. A LOT. Didn’t study. Just said FML, screw this. I tried to play starcraft, I sucked. I did MUN and won awards, and was only criticized by my parents. This was the second lowest point this year.
And then the college counselor from heaven came. Like a bat out of hell, she said, HELL YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT IVIES, lay off parents, you’re making things worse. Get your act together son, you have a lot of potential. You can do this! I was extremely motivated coming out of this, but this just led to the second pit of depression.
Following the calc grade crash of 2010, my parents surmised that this lady had made my self confidence too high. (Ignoring the fact that the calc test was BEFORE the lady…) and started to lay into me with personal attacks.
1. I have no friends
2. I lie to everyone
3. My friends know #2, but won’t tell me
4. My teachers barely tolerate me
5. I’ll be sad when my peers get accepted to colleges and I don’t
6. I act like I’m 5
(Yes, it actually was a Tuesday)
This lead to the “no motivational period” My priorities involved
1. Forgetting about my parents
2. Yeah, that’s it
Solution: team fortress 2. 100 hours, in two weeks. Fail grades. Fail
And then the subject of the last blog…
However, I’m just feeling depressed now .I may have screwed myself over. Mreow. I just want to know how screwed I am.
I think my cum GPA in high school will be about 4.3, maybe 4.2, if I do well for the rest of the semester WORK WORK WORK. I’ll get a 2300+ SAT, and have won 3 gavels for MUN, and do academic decathlon. I live in the east bay, and probably want to do either some sort of computer science/programming work, or business, or a flat econ major Although I don’t’ expect a great answer, I’d like your input on where I can/can’t go in California. Also, do you guys have any recommendations on schools farther away? I figured I’d stay in California, but at this rate…
Was just talking to my mom about rice. She insulted white rice. Thought you ought to know. She said I'd have to buy my own white rice, cause she's going to always make brown. Heck, short grain white rice is $6, I think I'll make the extreme sacrifice.