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Being Competitive Part 4: Discipline - Page 2
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EsX_Raptor
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MightyAtom
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On November 03 2010 15:16 HeavOnEarth wrote: As a university student, i appreciate all your blogs as they reaffirm my beliefs However this blog in particular struck it home, I am severely in need of a routine. All my life, whenever i tried i would beat valedictorian test grades(high school), outleveled my friends in mmorpgs(haha silly i know but i always viewed it as competitive), and was a social animal, made several very good friends that thought very well of me. But eventually, everything would fall apart, I would sleep in when i needed to study, i would skip classes which lead to me falling behind in class. I would get tired of playing and do other things, so even my 20 level advantage would lose. And all my old friends i would get sick of getting out of my room to go to parties, would rather stay in, and they eventually drifted away. So far in university im doing very well, near the top of my class. but i just feel like history is going to repeat itself. The problem i have is, i don't care for anything money has to offer. I have lived simple my entire life and i like it that way, Aka i would not mind working as a bag boy for the rest of my life. Therefore whenever i try this "routine" i get sick of it, It's boring and typical and whenever i try it i am 100% unhappy. Therefore, I have been trying to find a job/profession where my style of "intensity" can apply, such as an architecture working on a project for months- but when its done he can stop until the next one. Also, i'd have to add , that i've been diagnosed with sleep apnea, which is basically one part insomnia and one part sleep paralysis. It's also a bitch for my acne. In my case, i literally have 30 hour days. I can do the whole sleep at 9pm thing wake up at 5;30 easy. In fact i can sleep whenever the fuck i want give or take 15 minutes probably. However, give a week or so, and i CANNOT sleep until i've stayed up a certain period, period. I've tried not sleeping 8 hours ( only getting like 5 hours or so every night), shit just makes me go crazy. Anyways, maybe i haven't tried enough, or haven't disciplined myself enough, or don't know something that everyone else in the world knows, but i cannot get a routine going. They also gave me this machine im supposed to wear at night, Kinda like an oxygen mask, but i ripped it off that shit every night for a week (unconsciously), until i just gave up on it. I have to say the conventional methods don't work as well, the whole don't stare at lcd screens an hour before u sleep, i dont even drink caffeine , ever anymore, i work out regularly, and i definitely plan out my coursework, etc etc stuff like that. I also got counseling , the mental kind, they told me i was fine, so meh. /rant. I have to say, I followed everything up to the 6th paragraph, had something in my mind to give you a response, then for last 2, well, it kinda put quite the complex spin on everything. 1. Just because you can do everything, doesn't mean you should do everything. There is this concept of sustainability in your productivity. Again, this is more of an insightful comment because it seems very obvious when pointed out, but not so obvious when you're actually in the middle of it. A lot of companies or people can do an obscene amount of growth or work, obscene amount of profit and results and when they fail, they fail spectacularly, epic fail. Simply because they are not accounting for the 'sustainability' of their actions. So in this case, no amount of routine will assist you because you're already doing too much in the first place and their is no room for a routine because it the routine would actually INTERFERE with your existing projects. Thus, you adding a routine where there is not time for it, well, that even fucks shit up more. Imagine, you're already in the trenches and their is enemy fire 24/7, you think having a routine at that point is helpful? No, in fact, if your captain would say, its time for tea time now, you'd wouldn't even be able to enjoy the tea and it would give you more stress as you try to pretend this routine is helping you be stable. 2. Simulation, some people need more simulation than others, some of it is natural, some of it is self-induced. The natural kind, is simply you need more simulation, but for some, unless it is completely different change of environment ie. moving to a different country or to a more urban setting, they simply are not ever full, its like an artist moving to NY from Iowa for more inspiration, for like minded people. Other times, unnatural need for simulation occurs when you simply speculation too much on topics and build personal theories on theories and so forth, like deciding if a girl likes you, then having never spoken to that girl, going through scenario on scenario about her until you write her some strange love note that comes out of the blue and you expect reciprocation on it, but she's only seen you twice and you spent 10 whole days thinking about her. Project based work, as in architecture or consulting or even TV production, is intense and in that time frame, is it the best way to live? Not sure, to each their own, but in the context of competing, you will need some type of routine to give you some stability to simply have more stamina. Again, there is a mindless routine or a routine that is just too much and give you stress and their is a routine which brings stability and balance to your mental and physical self. Lets say you want to keep burning the midnight oil, if you have a routine, it will allow you to gauge yourself and allow you to realize that you could simply wake up at 5:30 in the morning and start again and you'd likely have a higher level of output/performance that pulling 2 all nighters and feeling like a superstar to just have your health and social life fall apart. There was a 1 month period where I only slept 4 hours a night and would take a 20 min nap during the day, simply because the stakes were high and no one was able to handle it in such a short period of time. Most people will never experience this unless they are war or running away from pirates, but for 4 months after, I had cough that would not go away and I would cough these little coughs all day long for 4 months and I gained 5 permanent kilograms in that period (like 12 pounds). I mean I had serious health issues after that period of work and I couldn't sleep properly, I would sleep 8 hours, but I never felt comfortable. Some times like is like that, but you can't live your entire life in those kinds of cycles because if you extend that over a 5 year period, the one who has more routine and sustainability/stamina in their performance will out perform your herculean achievements. Maybe you are a combination of the above, maybe not, but what I would suggest is perhaps getting more exposure to new things, like really new things and then something will catch your interest, like travel to the East/West/South or wherever, try a sport you would never normally try like touch rugby or something, but get yourself exposed to something; and if it matches with you, then you will feel inherently comfortable, and you will have a good nights rest after that exposure. Because I reckon, your issue isn't the routine, it is something more of a simulation issue. Cheers | ||
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MightyAtom
Korea (South)1897 Posts
On November 04 2010 01:17 RobJ wrote: What about people that think the want to overact and get sad when they not do like the others? For example, in a game like Trackmania, I have to practise a lot of maps, but sometimes I'm not happy with my personal records on a track (I think it's too slow for my level). Which makes me sad and I consider why I still play a game why I don't improve (which is not actually). I was wondering how you can get the feeling back : You can't do better then the best you can. Greets rOB Confidence, it's a growth process, and its natural to loss it, no answer how to get it back, but when it kicks back in with your determination to simply set a goal for yourself and to accept it for what it is, then at least you won't be sad anymore. I'm not great at everything, not even close, but I know myself where I can be that 'go to guy' for the game point; as long as you know you are as good as you can be then its enough, but just remember in business, your best isn't good enough, no one cares, its only the results that matter. But don't beat yourself up, remember, you score is in the context of time, even though you know you are doing better, you're own expectations are fucking you up; so let go of them and just say, this is a game I play over a period of time and next week and the week after I will be better so why care about my score/record now? Cheers | ||
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MightyAtom
Korea (South)1897 Posts
On November 04 2010 01:21 EsX_Raptor wrote: I'll confess I bookmarked this blog. Good read. ㄳ ^^ thanks! | ||
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When you say leave those guys that are holding you back- what do you mean exactly? I'll trade a lot for friendship and family And i'd give up anything for someone i love. | ||
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