When I finished my job training, I had a job offer from T-Mobile in Los Angeles which I didn't take because I was in love with a girl and I didn't want to give up all my friendships.
By now I can tell it was wrong since right now I encouter - for the first time in my life - the feeling that home doesn't feel like home anymore.
The relationship to that girl crumbled, the friends that were once close are not so close anymore.. and everything I was - I'm not anymore.
I completely changed - I didn't change my personalty.. I don't know what exactly happened, but right now my life feels like a bunch of shards with the same sequence every day..
I need to change something, or those shards will shred me and my life to pieces.