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A lot of interesting twists and complications arose during the past weekend, with regards to my love life. There is a lot to write, a lot to say, a lot to reflect upon. I want to write it all down, but there is much to write about, and my mind is just so confused, a thousand voices screaming at once. I hope that you, my dear reader, have the patience to follow me on this journey. Bon Voyage.
I stared deep into her eyes, relishing in her lust.
"If you're the princess, what am I?"
"You're the royal boy toy. The affair."
"What about those other guys you fucked with?"
"They're my concubines."
"Who's the prince?"
"Nick."
Nick, the 27 year old Caucasian jockey turned horse-dentist who makes obscene amounts of money. Nick, the man who she got together with barely 2 weeks after breaking up with me. Nick, the guy who can afford to buy her Louboutins on a whim. Nick, the lover who always has to travel. Fuck you Nick.
My heart sank and I looked away.That stung. I held her in my arms, cupped her breast, and laid naked next to her. It was my birthday you see, and my ex girlfriend came over to have sex with me, again.
Two days ago, she texted to meet me for some ice cream. I agreed to ice cream, I like ice cream, and my ex was going to throw we a really good birthday party on the eve of my birthday. We decided to cut off all contact from each other, or at least I did, after my birthday, for better or for worse. Towards the end of the day, she sent me another text, telling me to bring her to the most comfortable bed in the world, aka my bed, after ice cream.
I agreed, but I responded that we weren't going to have sex, because a month ago, when I suggested having a friends with benefits connection, she said a lot of hurtful things. She said that I was terrible in bed, she loves monster cocks, and she faked it every time. That hurt a lot, because sex was a really important part of our relationship. She apologized before and justified all those hurtful words by saying that it served her purpose to hurt me enough to leave her. But there are some things that you can never take back. Nevertheless, she apologized again, and told me that she never meant that, and she has always enjoyed sex with me.
"I'm going to cheat on Nick, but I'm not going to leave him."
"Ever?"
"Yes."
We had sex that day, technically the first time I've had sex since the breakup. I say technically because the day before, I was on a date with a hot blonde woman named Pam. When we were about to have sex, I found out that I was one of the 2% that suffered from decreased libido from ingesting Zyrtec. I was rendered dead below the waist. I promised her that I would give her the best sex ever the next day, the day which I fucked my ex girlfriend, and she giggled and told me that she could just kiss me until sun rise.
My ex told me that she forgot how good I was in bed, and that I pleased her the best. She was about to finish me off, then she stopped. 'We should leave some for the other girl', she said. For the first time in my life I had sex with two girls in one day.
Just after she threw me the best birthday party in my life, she whispered to me this, "If I catch you in bed with another girl tomorrow. If you have sex with a girl tonight, I will not have sex with you tomorrow morning."
I was going to a night club after the birthday party, for some real partying, counting down the minutes to my actual birthday. I agreed, as I loved fucking her.
After having sex to me on my birthday, she revealed that she lied about her good girl bullshit, the garbage she was telling me about how she was changing for the better and only having sex in a committed relationship. She partied and went home with a guy every other day. The fact that she only did it with her friends, it was not fulfilling, and that after fucking around so much, she realised that I was the best fuck ever, was supposed to be some form of consolation. Fucking slut. She slept with people I knew. She slept with my friends.
"Why did you do that."
"I don't know. Nick was overseas all the time and I was just pissed off."
"That is a poor excuse."
"I just wanted to see if I was in love with him okay? Why do you keep bringing it up, its not a big deal to me anyway."
"Why did you lie to me all this time, putting up your good girl front. Telling me that you didn't have sex all this time, and that you were just as horny as me..."
"I didn't know how to tell you, I knew you'd go crazy if I told you."
"No, I would have never talked to you again, ever."
"I know..."
A while after we had sex again and she showered me with the usual compliments. Then she told me she felt jealous that I slept with other girls. How ironic.
Throughout the period of the breakup, she was quick to remind me how much she loathed me, how much better Nick was, how she was sick of me, and how she no longer harbored any form of feelings for me.
Yet in that cute birthday card she made me, she wrote this:
To my favorite Chinese boy, the special time of the year is finally here again! Hope you enjoyed your 20th birthday in the company of friends. I had to make sure it was doubly awesome to make up for 2012
I know we have been through so much these few months and I am sorry for being the cause of all that. I am glad though, that despite all our crazy arguments, madness, bitterness and tears we are still sitting beside each other today in peace and to be honest I’m not even sick of you yet/at all.
I don’t at all regret whatever we shared because it was good , I don’t know how to describe it but I think we both secretly know that we have given each other something we will never share with anyone else, you could say a kind of innocent connection that involves irritating each other all the time.
I will love you and keep you in my heart forever even if we ever lose contact because you are so special to me. All the best for the years ahead: with school, with army, with gym, with girls. Don’t hesitate to try new things and embrace every opportunity.
We are always more afraid than we wish to be but we can always be braver than we expect. When one door closes, another will open. Who knows, in all our opening and closing of doors in our life time, one day we might just find each other again on the opposite side.
Happy Birthday!!!
I let her keep the card after the birthday party, because I was going to a night club and I didn’t want to lose it. She wrote an extra paragraph at the back of the card. When I got to it, she tried to snatch the card away from me, saying that she was drunk when she wrote it, but nonetheless, I read it.
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“Why are you doing this to me? You know you love me; you know we’re meant to be together.”
“I don’t know… But I love Nick too. I wish I could just combine both you you, and you'd be the perfect guy"
“I just want you to know, there will come one day, when I’m sick and tired of your bullshit, and I will never, ever take you back. And you’re going to grovel and ask for me back.”
“Okay…”
My ex revealed to be shortly after that she’s always been in love with me. But she doesn't want to leave the other guy, because she’s afraid she’ll be losing something good. Don’t get me wrong, they’re technically still not boyfriend and girlfriend, but my ex is in some try new things phase, so I guess she just wants to see what it’s like to be his girlfriend. I don’t know how I feel about this. I love sleeping with her, and it’s great that now we can make out freely and hold hands without her being such a dick about it. What a fucking double standard slut, holding hands with me is somehow cheating on her ex, but fucking around with every other guy, including friends of Nick, is not cheating? Oh right, because you didn't have feelings for them.
What I do know for sure is that I never want to feel like I’m second to anyone. Never again.
Read here about the breakup.
 
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To be honest I think you should try to get away from this girl. Doesn't seem like she has any idea what she wants in a relationship, I'm not so sure about you either.
Granted, good sex life is important for most relationships but what else is there for you to get from her really?
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Oh my goodness, thought it was fiction at first, but then I realized that this actually happened 
And then the ending
And then realizing that you were the one who wrote that breakup blog
"Ya choose me, or ya lose me." I think you should move on, if at all possible. Best of luck ;__;
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On January 30 2013 16:37 nRoot wrote:
To be honest I think you should try to get away from this girl. Doesn't seem like she has any idea what she wants in a relationship, I'm not so sure about you either.
Granted, good sex life is important for most relationships but what else is there for you to get from her really?
I do know what I want, deep down. I just want love. It's just sad that every time we go on dates, it has to be discrete and secretive.
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Wow. I thought women like this only existed in Jersey Shore and Sluts & the City.
The sooner you get away from her, the better.
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Crazy Bitch
Nuff Sed
EDIT: lolwut the girl in the previous blog is the same? Wow i remember reading that, who woulda thunk?
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I love her a lot and I know that she loves me, so its just sad that she's in this bullshit phase.Not two weeks after we broke up, I learned about the new guy, the hard way, through night club photos over facebook. I don't know what to think, it used to be, I don't love you anymore, stop, to I love you, but I love Nick as well.
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Does the word "toy" mean anything to you? I mean, you sank so low she isn't even hiding her sadistic manipulation anymore.
I'm sorry for being blunt but you are pathetic and this girl is a worthless, superficial skank who is using you to fuel the most perverted depths of her ego.
Yes, fucking a bunch of random "friends" is a great way to show love. I'm sure she is just very confused (???)
Find a real woman with a soul and emotions and get out of your state of mind and the prison you've built for yourself. There are 3 billion women on this planet. Don't be stuck with the crossbreed between Samantha & Snooki just because her pussy smells nice... for what it's worth I've been there and this advice applies to the past me just as well as it does to you.
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On January 30 2013 23:44 lisward wrote:
I love her a lot and I know that she loves me, so its just sad that she's in this bullshit phase.
To be frank, I don't think you love HER but some kind of dreamy projection you (still) have of how you want her to be. For how long do you know her now? It takes a long time to really get to know people, and most of this time isn't spend having sex.
You should try to forget about her and find someone new, someone you can talk to and share your feelings. You wont look back, I'm pretty sure.
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Ahahaha, the location being Singapore makes it that much better. This type of thing is so common in that city. It's why I love Singapore <3.
On the girl, you should definitely dump her. Her handwriting is absolutely atrocious. Just look at the way she writes her own name. It's like drunken chicken scratch. She obviously takes zero pride in herself. She can wear all the Louboutins she wants, it'll never change the fact she writes so poorly. This is not a woman you would want to bear your children, I can tell you that right now.
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Plus, she uses word echoes. She is the lowest of the low.
And in the end, she doesn't want to combine you and Nick. She wants to combine your magical Chinese tiger penis with Nick's bank account. That's all. What you need to get this girl out of your system is a nice long vacation in Geylang. Go Westerhout road or something. Actually, I hear 16-54A has a decent batch right now.
Edit: OK, I just looked at your breakup blog and saw the pics. You can def find better in Geylang! No need for little brother to be deprived!
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On January 31 2013 03:08 SamsungStar wrote:
Ahahaha, the location being Singapore makes it that much better. This type of thing is so common in that city. It's why I love Singapore <3.
On the girl, you should definitely dump her. Her handwriting is absolutely atrocious. Just look at the way she writes her own name. It's like drunken chicken scratch. She obviously takes zero pride in herself. She can wear all the Louboutins she wants, it'll never change the fact she writes so poorly. This is not a woman you would want to bear your children, I can tell you that right now.
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Plus, she uses word echoes. She is the lowest of the low.
And in the end, she doesn't want to combine you and Nick. She wants to combine your magical Chinese tiger penis with Nick's bank account. That's all. What you need to get this girl out of your system is a nice long vacation in Geylang. Go Westerhout road or something. Actually, I hear 16-54A has a decent batch right now.
Edit: OK, I just looked at your breakup blog and saw the pics. You can def find better in Geylang! No need for little brother to be deprived!
Haha thanks for the input, I know I can do better than Geylang rofl.
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goddamnit son how many times do I have to tell you to get away from this wench
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On January 31 2013 15:18 Dfgj wrote:
goddamnit son how many times do I have to tell you to get away from this wench
I know, I know
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Sounds like she wants to 'keep you warm' just because she can and because she doesn't actually know what she wants. Get away from her.
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On January 31 2013 12:09 lisward wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2013 03:08 SamsungStar wrote:
Ahahaha, the location being Singapore makes it that much better. This type of thing is so common in that city. It's why I love Singapore <3.
On the girl, you should definitely dump her. Her handwriting is absolutely atrocious. Just look at the way she writes her own name. It's like drunken chicken scratch. She obviously takes zero pride in herself. She can wear all the Louboutins she wants, it'll never change the fact she writes so poorly. This is not a woman you would want to bear your children, I can tell you that right now.
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Plus, she uses word echoes. She is the lowest of the low.
And in the end, she doesn't want to combine you and Nick. She wants to combine your magical Chinese tiger penis with Nick's bank account. That's all. What you need to get this girl out of your system is a nice long vacation in Geylang. Go Westerhout road or something. Actually, I hear 16-54A has a decent batch right now.
Edit: OK, I just looked at your breakup blog and saw the pics. You can def find better in Geylang! No need for little brother to be deprived! Haha thanks for the input, I know I can do better than Geylang rofl.
No, no, I mean you can easily find better in Geylang than this girl! I'd much rather pay 150 sing than have to read a letter with handwriting that bad.
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On January 31 2013 00:09 nRoot wrote:Show nested quote +On January 30 2013 23:44 lisward wrote:
I love her a lot and I know that she loves me, so its just sad that she's in this bullshit phase. To be frank, I don't think you love HER but some kind of dreamy projection you (still) have of how you want her to be. For how long do you know her now? It takes a long time to really get to know people, and most of this time isn't spend having sex. You should try to forget about her and find someone new, someone you can talk to and share your feelings. You wont look back, I'm pretty sure.
2 years, and I know everything about her, as she knows everything about me. There were points where she'd just come over my house every day and we'd just chill and spend time together.
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