EPTOther than that it is terribly pointless.
It's saturday,
I had an announced visitor this morning and I got up early.
Nice ten hour rest,
did chores around the house, even had the energy to do some morning-sport.
Visitor comes and goes,
I have a lot of focus today.
Getting some reading done,
cooking my own food,
while withstanding the million cheap solutions to that right around the corner.
Browsing some TL, playing CS:GO,
watching some twitch when suddenly my head gets heavy.
There is no pain,
no dizzyness,
I am not even tired as far as I can tell,
but I just lay down.
And when I turn on my side and close my eyes,
it feels amazing.
Like, that is the place to be.
It's like, as if you have to pee and finally can go pee,
I just wanna make clear that I did not feel tired at all,
but right there, everything just fell off me.
And then I had three really strange dreams,
because they did not feel like dreams at all.
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(this is where I would start a christmas story for yall if this wasn't plain old boring reality)
It also didn't feel like sleeping,
more like losing consciousness because of physical exertion,
like a breakdown after a marathon.
Then I woke up in that state,
mentally there, but physically devistated.
So I force myself to stand up and I know where I am,
the only problem, I have never seen this place.
It feels like home though,
it is a nice home, a little nicer than my current home.
My attention is drawn to the door,
because I am convinced I am dreaming.
So I check it for hints,
I touch it, inspect it from both sides,
it is a door.
I go into the bathroom and stand infront of the mirror.
This is me, only it is not the face I would see when I check the mirror right now.
But that doesn't scare me,
my thought is - that's cool.
(I even start touching my hair)
I wake up in a similar,
but not the same place.
I have a similar,
but not the same face,
I rearrange some furnuture and look out of the window,
this time I even remember plans I made and problems that ran through my head,
though I can only tell that they are my problems because they feel like it,
I have no long term memory of this live.
In the third "Dream" I wake up at my father's.
My first thought is that I expected to wake up elsewhere and wonder how I got here.
I know this is not my reality, but I have this really strong feeling that even in this reality
I should not have woken up here.
Like my father just had to pick me up from the drunk tank last night or something.
We exchange two short sentences before I lose consciosness again.
I know lucid dreams,
but this felt different.
I was awake, not semi awake, but awake in those dreams.
The worlds were absolutly convincing,
reality was coherent within them.
My memories of them are as clear as they are of today's morning,
maybe even a little clearer,
since a lot of the new stuff was put under the category "fascinating" in my brain.
Also, the way all three ended was by me losing consciosness.
I remember falling asleep,
just like I did to start this trip.
Maybe I should not have eaten all the mushrooms for dinner today...
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Joke, though I mostly ate White Button Mushrooms (I bought them in a shop, so I
did not pick the wrong ones in the forrest either)
did not pick the wrong ones in the forrest either)
Thanks for listening,
hope you are having a great Christmas time!
