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Xenocide_Knight
Profile Blog Joined January 2008
Korea (South)2625 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-01-05 19:42:05
January 05 2014 11:11 GMT
#1
Spiders! Erm, bugs in general I guess.
^.^;;
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Paljas
Profile Joined October 2011
Germany6926 Posts
January 05 2014 11:36 GMT
#2
I am sorry
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MtlGuitarist97
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States1539 Posts
January 05 2014 11:36 GMT
#3
Without trying to just sympathize with you, there are a few things I think you need to realize. First is that your actions may not have been the best or most "moral," but who really cares about that? You made them and now you just have to come to grips with it. If you really feel that awkward about it with your two friends, tell them about it. Don't tell them any of the bullshit, just tell them what really happened. Tell them that you were feeling lonely or however you were feeling and wanted attention and sympathy. Everyone feels vulnerable in some way after someone they were close to dies. I'm sure that they'd understand and at the very least accept what you did and probably think it was pretty normal.

About your life being basically worthless, I guess there are two different perspectives. One is that everyone's life is insignificant and that there is no meaning to human life. We are born, we get old, we die. Some of us leave a marginally more significant impact than others, but in truth we really don't do anything for history. That being said, your life can still have some meaning relative to your existence. You enjoy your career from the look of it, which is way more than most people I know can say. How many people have you met that just do their job for money or some kind of financial benefit, despite hating it? Your job also allows you to perform in front of people for their enjoyment; I'd say that's pretty cool. Very few people get to actually see people be happy as a result of their work.

Reflecting that your friend may have been a better person than you is pretty worthless. He's dead and there's nothing that can change that, unfortunately. Don't feel bad for enjoying your life or for making a mistake. At least if I died young, I'd want my friends to live their life the happiest they could. And it seems like your life is overall pretty happy, so just come to terms with what happened.

And also, even though it's five years late, sorry for your loss.
vOdToasT
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Sweden2870 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-01-05 12:21:23
January 05 2014 12:20 GMT
#4
I can't say I care about any of this

Except the guy doing who didn't deserve to die, I suppose
But all the stuff about you really wasn't interesting
If it's stupid but it works, then it's not stupid* (*Or: You are stupid for losing to it, and gotta git gud)
wingpawn
Profile Blog Joined June 2013
Poland1342 Posts
January 05 2014 16:36 GMT
#5
1. Feel guilty about getting undeserved sympathy over friend's death.
2. Post a TL blog about the whole issue.
3. Get more undeserved sympathy online to feel guilty even more.

WTF, are you a masochist?

Come on man, life is stupid and never gives anyone what they deserve. Also, dead people don't care whether you're using them for your own egoistic reasons. And if you think 14-year old sister is too young to talk with her about this - you're wrong.
ninazerg
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States7291 Posts
January 05 2014 17:27 GMT
#6
On January 05 2014 20:11 Xenocide_Knight wrote:

The other was a girl, a longtime family friend. And after I gave her a long sob story (at least I think it was long, I was quite inebriated at the time, much like right now) of how my best friend died in an accident the summer before we all went off to college, we quickly went from old family friends to friends with benefits.



HIGH FIVE BRO.

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...was it all just a subtle brag blog? He does start off with the fact that he uses sympathy to manipulate others, but wanted to created a girl brag blog without it appearing to be one. Of course, the title is also intriguing. "My Greatest Fear"... who wouldn't want to click it and be like "I wonder what he's afraid of"? Death? Spiders? Rape? No, it's going to funerals and getting too much pussy.

"If two pregnant women get into a fist fight, it's like a mecha-battle between two unborn babies." - Fyodor Dostoevsky
BisuEver
Profile Joined May 2010
United States247 Posts
January 05 2014 20:07 GMT
#7
Why did he die exactly?
http://us.battle.net/d3/en/blog/10873775/pa-presents-diablo-iii-console-comic-by-katie-rice-9-13-2013
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