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alia
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GaNgStaRR.ElV
Canada535 Posts
At the end of the day you gave your all for something your passionate with and a few mistakes along the way, nothing to be ashamed of, especially with a support system like family to give you advice. There's always light at the end of the tunnel. | ||
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Sajedene
United States10 Posts
I'm going to tell you something that you're not going to want to hear. I am the kind of person who rarely feels pity towards people who put themselves in the situation they find themselves in. You chose this route, now you have to live it. Ask yourself, what is the real intention of your post (since you mentioned you're not sure why you're doing it)? Do you need help? Or do you feel that this attention, and the pity you will generate will help you in achieving what you want (more viewers to possibly generate a revenue/partnership) or what you need (to get your life on track)? I really hope it's the latter. You need to get your life back on track and honestly, the last thing you need right now is video games, viewers, and online attention for the lack of the prior. Just let go. Let go of it. Focus on yourself, finding a job and a stable place to live. Don't stoop to the level of popularity out of pity. If you need help, then please, by all means... ask. But ask for it in regards to help in finding a job, a place to stay, a meal or two. Don't drown yourself in this world you created in your head that you think you need to be a part of. Get your shit together first - then worry about that. Being an entertaining streamer and viewer count is such a superficial issue compared to everything else that you need to work on in your life. Feel free to message me if you really want to get your life on track. I won't hold your hand. I won't baby you. What I will do is do my best to actually help you get out of your rut, any way I can. All the best. | ||
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alia
United States294 Posts
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ChiIIgetoutGG
Canada101 Posts
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ProV1
United States980 Posts
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alia
United States294 Posts
Either way, it doesn't really matter to me right now. I've got more important things to think about at the moment. I didn't expect people to say that I was using this blog as a way to boost viewer count or something (which is not the case). I gave up on it a couple weeks back when I didn't have a place to stay. I did expect that there would be harsh comments. I willingly posted this knowing that if I ever did come back, someone could, at any time, bring this back up and "have something on me", I suppose. But it is fine. I can deal with that. Harsh words over the internet are the least of my worries at the moment and some of them have at least a little bit of advice or truth in them. I wrote this because putting it out there is helping me cope. At the same time, it's my strange way of asking a certain someone for help. | ||
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AFKing
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run.at.me
Australia550 Posts
In order to reach the top in life, you need to hit rockbottom first. You're at rockbottom. Fortunately you're 22. Just a kid, really. You will learn from this - learn to prioritize what needs to be done verse what you feel like doing. Everything will be fine, you will figure it all out. Tough times, just believe you can conquer it and you will. | ||
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tauon
Australia1278 Posts
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wonderwall
New Zealand695 Posts
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alia
United States294 Posts
On January 16 2013 11:54 run.at.me wrote: You've been spending too much time on what you enjoy rather than what you need to do to survive. In order to reach the top in life, you need to hit rockbottom first. You're at rockbottom. Fortunately you're 22. Just a kid, really. You will learn from this - learn to prioritize what needs to be done verse what you feel like doing. Everything will be fine, you will figure it all out. Tough times, just believe you can conquer it and you will. You are right. It's quite a humbling experience, actually. You don't really quite look at food or a good night's sleep in the same way again. That's for sure. | ||
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Keldrath
United States449 Posts
You don't know it, but I'm very much like you, and I've been in those kinds of places mentally a few times, and I'm sure I will be again, I can relate, and I also know my words probably don't seem to mean much. It doesn't seem to help much to hear things could get better, and you should be sure to give that a chance to work out. You don't really have much to lose by trying to see. Honestly I just don't want you to make the mistake I did when I was in that situation. This helped me, and I hope it will help you too. | ||
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Reap_
Brunei Darussalam760 Posts
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alia
United States294 Posts
On January 16 2013 12:20 Reap_ wrote: Hey man, this is sad to hear. Don't you have any family or relatives place you can stay at? At least until you get a job maybe? I have two cousins. Both of them are in University and can't really offer me a semi-permanent place. They were the first people I contacted. I'm at my cousin's dorm in Irvine, but I can't stay very long. The other lives in San Francisco, but he doesn't have any room where he lives, I think. I've been couchsurfing at friends' places pretty much all around southern California, but no one can offer more than a few days. If I knew where I would be in a few days, few weeks, or few months, it would make finding a job a lot easier. | ||
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Cool Cat
United States1644 Posts
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Esoterikk
Canada1256 Posts
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alia
United States294 Posts
On January 16 2013 12:36 Esoterikk wrote: You're not going to want to hear this but go get a job at a fast food place most of them hire on the spot and full time will get you rent money. Can't be picky in the real world unfortunately. No. It's fine. I'm willing to take pretty much anything at the moment. I don't mind working fast food. It's something, at the very least. The hardest part is finding a place to stay without being able to pay for first month's rent. | ||
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Sporadic44
United States533 Posts
I cant speak on the couch surfing and lack of a place to call home. Though personally where I live is nothing like a "home". I carry that with me in my heart even when i'm alone. If you can learn to do that you will never be lost. Put the game down for awhile. I dont mean physically(Idk if youre still playing dota right now) but mentally, just let it go. Get your shit together, get a job, get a place to live. I love video games and I always will, but living for nothing but the game is a very sad path to walk. Take it all in stride and with a calm mind. Figure out what you need to do, strategize, then execute; just like you would in dota. You need to have your basic needs met before you can truly grow. I'll leave this here | ||
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blandie
Australia1 Post
I made an account on TL just to say that your story touched me. You went for broke, sometimes it doesnt pay off. But you seem to have matured, and made a few difficult decisions. Mainly, the maturity and depth of this blog was a saddening and touching read. Now you have admitted these things to yourself, I think you will be fine. and when you are finished with getting back on your feet, finish uni man. You will make something of yourself through hard work, if nothing else. A fan. Blandie | ||
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