EPTScrewed over
I can't explain to any of you what it is like to get screwed over. Getting fucked over is something that everyone has to experience, and every time it sucks. What sucks worse is when you get screwed over by others. The worst of the worst is when someone does it to you out of spite, malice, hatred or just because they can.
It sucks to get screwed when it hurts you, it just sucks. You wonder what you did, you wonder why you deserved it. You probably look for someone or something to justify it. You introspect, you outrospect, you attribute it to external factors, you attribute it to internal factors, and none of it is true. You rationalize, you theorize, you hypothesize, and to no avail.You wonder why it hurts so bad, why someone else wants to hurt you so bad. I wonder all of these things to, it's not just you.
Getting screwed is worse when someone screws you over, and screws another person you love over. It sucks when other people take it into their own agenda, they make it their own job, to make another person's life difficult. In doing so, they make the loved ones around that person's life difficult. It feels terrible to know that you hurt someone else, because another hurt you. What feels worse is that you didn't even mean to hurt your loved one, but apparently someone else thought it would be cool to do so. Dick.
The worst of the worst is having someone else make you hurt a person you love by screwing you over. I don't know, maybe they gave a person you love a medal and then take it away, and then they give said medal to you, and then take it away, and then give it back to the person you love, and then back and forth and back and forth. Maybe it's funny in some sick and stupid, psychopathic way. Maybe it brings other people joy to force you to hurt someone you love by screwing you over repeatedly in a process. Maybe it's to make your loved one cry in your arms over it. Maybe it's just because they can. Fuck whoever does this, just fuck you. It's happened to me one too many times now.
thank you, TL. Sorry for the random rage blog.
EDIT: specifics:
I went to a conference for Model UN, where I got hated on by a guy who is anti-semitic. He screwed me over by pretty much spreading lies about how he treats me to some of my friends. The real reason I wrote this blog however is about the head of the entire thing. the inflictor He is a 30 year old, balding, UT-chattanooga barely graduating, petty, douchebag. He gave my girlfriend an award that a committee head had meant for me. The committee head called me on the phone saying their was a mistake, and I was forced to tell my girlfriend that not only had she not won an award, I had to take it from her after she had taken pictures for it. The worst part was that she had the biggest grin on her face after just a totally shit-tastic day. I just wiped the grin off her face and she cried in my arms for 2 hours because of how embarrassed she was and then during this she had to tell her mom and her friends that I had won and not her. Then later on, the head of the Model UN stated that the award was my girlfriends. The chair then said it wasn't and that the head made a mistake. The head then made reference to vague "committee heads" which he never named and said that the award was my girlfriend. The head of committee that said the award was given mistakenly then serendipitously recanted. The award was my girlfriends, but not before I had significant issues given to me because of the ordeal that was all He's fault.
As a bit of background, I was the youngest head of committee. He picked me and took a chance, he then didn't coach me, shot me down, and set me up to fail. He gave me his best friend to help me head committee, this guy was nick named Creepy-(insert his name here) because he was borderline a pedophile and a complete pervert with an enormous craving to relive his highschool chair days. I was kicked out, I then proceeded to magically stop winning awards despite being convincingly better than other people at said Model UN after being kicked out as a chair. This was He's latest affront to me, and this one was the biggest, most hilarious showing of why the guy is a complete peice of shit who can't stand not getting his way. Sabotaging a high-schooler as a 30 year old. Well played, well played.
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