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Let me tell you about my dirty little secret.

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Golgotha
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
Korea (South)8418 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-01-31 18:21:22
January 31 2012 09:24 GMT
#1
Let me tell you about my dirty little secret.

There is nothing in this world that ever lasts, nothing in this world that will consistently make you feel the way you do when you climb the highest mountain. Nothing can continue to satisfy you like when you realize a sudden truth, nor can you hope to keep the ecstasy of young kindling love forever. Our biological chemistry and the power of time will always dull these moments of “true” happiness. Humans are insatiable and fallible. We change and sadly, so do the things that temporarily sustain our smiles. We either want more and seek other things, or we grow bored and take for granted what we have.

Too many people foolishly envision a perfect marriage in which they “take on the world” and somehow come out unscathed in the end. We all know and must understand that the first day is not like the 100th day, nor is it like the 10,000th.

No wonder the world is full of religion and beliefs. You see, the idea of religion and god can last forever throughout the passage of time. It is in a sense an unmoving star (yes, even the North Star moves but work with me) that will always shine no matter what. But, to keep things short, we all know that religion is simply a safety net for the weak and hopeless. It is for those who are blinded by the beauty of the “star” because in relation to their own personal life, it is far greater than anything they can achieve. However, we cannot blame such people for the world surely does not offer a many great alternatives.

So in the the light of this utterly meaningless and purposeless life, are we better off dead? I mean, why should we continue to live when nothing in the end and now really matter?

I say no. We are not better off dead! Rather, we must take the sorrow and emptiness of the world and kiss it goodnight, every fucking night.

Let me tell you why.

I have faith, not in a religious sense, but a faith that comes from hope. When we hope, our state of mind and ultimately our happiness rises with the level of what we are hoping for. Hoping for a brand new shiny car is not the same joy as when we hope for snow on a school day (eh, I will take the snow day ). Thus, our feeling depends on the things we long for, we desire and hope for. This is why I will now tell you to hope for the greatest thing that you could ever wish for. The thing that people will pray to a god for and live all their lives in search of.

The hope of a meaningful and purposeful life.

Can you imagine that? To finally gain meaning and purpose in our lives would mean that we have finally broken the barrier and obstacle of how all good things must come to an end. It would mean that every day would be the first day you fell in love! Rest in the serenity of peace baby because true meaning and purpose will never let you go and never let you down. It is unwavering confidence and a love of life that surpasses the touch of time and carries the world. I would like to write more but how can a mere mortal such as myself explain something so grand and magnanimous? I do not do justice to the definition of true meaning and true purpose for it goes beyond my wildest imagination and most importantly, differs from person to person, from you to me. Alas, it is also nigh impossible to reach.

What? Impossible to reach? Then what is the use of longing for such ideals? It can’t happen so what the fuck is the point? Nothing in this world will offer such meaning and purpose because all things are man made and thus must come to an end. Our true love can betray us, friends fade away, our accomplishments drown in history and material wealth lacks the ability to fully satisfy our complex human needs.

Listen carefully.

Because it is impossible, we can only hope. Because it is unreachable, we can only hope. But because it is so great, that hope is enough.

There is nothing greater than a meaningful and purposeful life that truly enables a man or a woman to embrace death without regret and with a big fat smile on their face.

I struggle with the fact that I dream of things that will never come, but it is the FACT that I dream of things that are so tastefully out of reach and beyond the scope of anything that has been, was and is of this world, that allows me to live life so optimistic and determined. Do you not understand? The hope of a brand new shiny car does not hold a candle to what I feel now. For I have faith and hope of something far greater, and the feeling of happiness I get from this hope is enough to last forever.

That day might never come but who says I cannot have simple faith and a dream a boy’s dream? Why must everything be black and white? My life is a journey in search of true meaning and purpose. Though arduous and impossible it might be, I can take this journey a thousand times for the reward is too great to ignore!

When you are outside at night, look up to the stars. Take in the frigid air and all the starry lights. Let go of all things that are in the past and shed away everything, until all that left is you. Come to realize that in the end we are just ourselves and nothing else. All the things we have have no meaning without us! And, if we ourselves do not have meaning, then how pitiful and sad our lives will be! Thus, close your eyes and juxtapose a meaningless life with that one of true meaning and purpose. It is a comparison that not even, “forever and ending” can define. Then, just imagine how fucking sweet and life-changing it will be! To go from no meaning to a life of purpose would be cosmically orgasmic! Hehe, imagine! Picture yourself with nothing but your underwear and yet you lack nothing because you have that which gives you everything.

If you smiled at this thought, then you have tasted the words I have spoken, you have felt this great hope that I have. And, if you never want this taste to leave your senses, then why not go after it and suck, swallow, bite and eat the whole thing?! After all, if you can taste it, then perhaps it might just exist.

FIGHTING~!

***
ArcticMuse
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Australia93 Posts
January 31 2012 10:00 GMT
#2
live for the moment not the memory. cliché but true.
Uranium
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States1077 Posts
January 31 2012 10:01 GMT
#3
I don't know what I just read, but it's not a dirty little secret.

A dirty little secret would be something like "One time my sister and I got really drunk and hooked up. She doesn't remember it, but I do."
"Sentry imba! You see? YOU SEE??!!" - Sen | "Marauder die die!" - oGsMC | "Oh my god, she texted me back!" - Day[9]
Kojak21
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
Canada1104 Posts
January 31 2012 10:18 GMT
#4
On January 31 2012 19:01 Uranium wrote:
I don't know what I just read, but it's not a dirty little secret.

A dirty little secret would be something like "One time my sister and I got really drunk and hooked up. She doesn't remember it, but I do."


fuck, how did u knowÉ
¯\_(☺)_/¯
FreeFruitFly
Profile Joined November 2011
Australia29 Posts
January 31 2012 10:20 GMT
#5
I expected something scandalous of some sort, but this was much better!

5/5
acrimoneyius
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States983 Posts
January 31 2012 10:54 GMT
#6
On January 31 2012 18:24 Golgotha wrote:
When you are outside at night, look up to the stars. Take in the frigid air and all the starry lights.


But I live in Las Vegas..and we see no stars.
FinestHour
Profile Joined August 2010
United States18466 Posts
January 31 2012 11:05 GMT
#7
Just turn this in for an A ezpz
thug life.                                                       MVP/ex-
leadphyc
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
United States99 Posts
January 31 2012 11:31 GMT
#8
I do not really know what this really is because some parts it seems like you have a horrible outlook on like and then it turns a 180 so I really do not know what the truth here is. :0
always go for the win!
Jinsho
Profile Joined March 2011
United Kingdom3101 Posts
January 31 2012 11:31 GMT
#9
Meaningless tripe. Well, to anyone over 21, that is. Grow up and stop polluting the internet with this rubbish.
Sadistx
Profile Blog Joined February 2009
Zimbabwe5568 Posts
January 31 2012 13:16 GMT
#10
On January 31 2012 20:31 Jinsho wrote:
Meaningless tripe. Well, to anyone over 21, that is. Grow up and stop polluting the internet with this rubbish.

Everyone has to go through this phase

No need to be rude!
Bagration
Profile Blog Joined October 2011
United States18282 Posts
January 31 2012 13:23 GMT
#11
On January 31 2012 19:01 Uranium wrote:
I don't know what I just read, but it's not a dirty little secret.

A dirty little secret would be something like "One time my sister and I got really drunk and hooked up. She doesn't remember it, but I do."


That would be traumatizing. The horror!
Team Slayers, Axiom-Acer and Vile forever
Xiahou
Profile Blog Joined June 2011
Singapore80 Posts
January 31 2012 13:25 GMT
#12
What the fuck did I just read... Whatever it is, not a dirty little secret...
GigaFlop
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States1146 Posts
January 31 2012 13:36 GMT
#13
Interesting, but I think I'm too far gone for this kind of stuff.
(╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻ "Shift-Q oftentimes makes a capital Q" - Day[9] || iNcontrol - Alligator from heaven = ^
Hulavuta
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
United States1252 Posts
January 31 2012 14:21 GMT
#14
Pretty old...
Done with Team Liquid for a while. Don't expect to find me here.
Subversive
Profile Joined October 2009
Australia2229 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-01-31 15:08:22
January 31 2012 14:48 GMT
#15
Er I have to say I wasn't a fan of this. It seems like something you'd read or hear in a Tony Robinson seminar. I didn't find it profound. 1/5

Now, I must go and bullshit an 8 page paper...


On January 31 2012 20:05 FinestHour wrote:
Just turn this in for an A ezpz

Lol
#1 Great fan ~ // Khan // FlaSh // JangBi // EffOrt //
ShatterZer0
Profile Joined November 2010
United States1843 Posts
January 31 2012 14:57 GMT
#16
Absurdism is absurd. I do not believe it ends in anything meaningful. Neither do Absurdists. And yet, they're okay with that. Okay with waiting to die. Okay with living meaningless lives.

What is meaningful if you believe that a life can have variable worth?

How can you have a purposeful meaningful life if all life is but hoping for some unknown unanswerable question?

Well, whatever. As many stars as you like.
A time to live.
HackBenjamin
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
Canada1094 Posts
January 31 2012 16:23 GMT
#17
Are you trying to say I should all-in more?
flamewheel
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
FREEAGLELAND26782 Posts
January 31 2012 17:17 GMT
#18
Maybe it was the music.



Regardless, I enjoyed this.
Writerdamn, i was two days from retirement
rotinegg
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
United States1719 Posts
January 31 2012 18:11 GMT
#19
hmmmm... 5/5
Translator
Roe
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
Canada6002 Posts
January 31 2012 18:14 GMT
#20
what is this obsessing with typing in all caps "fighting"? does anyone laugh at this? do people enjoy seeing the words?
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