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It seems like most of the blogs I've made here are about my troubles and things that just aren't going my way. This time, it's about what's good, because I can honestly say this is the happiest I've been in a really long time.
Food:
Quite a few of my blogs have been addressed to my screwy eating and not being able to control it. Well, I've been doing really well with it. I feel really good about myself, and really good in general. Eating well makes me so confident. Showing self control makes me feel human. There's nothing more beautiful than consistency, nothing that feels better.
A couple of weeks ago I was eating really badly, and my life was basically the big suck. I couldn't get my head out of the negative thoughts that I'd fallen into. I made a blog committing myself to eating better. I set the goal to eat perfectly, which I didn't do, but I really did well. I set the goal to be down to 180 by my birthday (today) which I did. I thought it was impossible but worth a shot with how crappy I was doing. But I did it.  Being on the right path, no matter what speed, feels right.
Ladies:
Things with her didn't quite work out. I didn't expect them to, but I had high hopes. She stopped emailing me back in July. It hurt pretty bad. I'm not going to lie. But it led to better things.
My best friend and I were hanging out about a month ago. She's been my best friend for 5 years. We're really alike. Both super passive, easy-going, do whatever type of people. Our relationship has always been completely platonic, never even coming close to anything more than being best friends. I've always thought what it would be like if we did fall in love. How great we would be together. How right those thoughts felt, even though I knew nothing would happen.
Back to a month ago. We had just finished playing Hand and Foot with her parents and getting it brutally up the butt. Game over, we lose, I hate losing, but whatever. She says we should go swing in the hammock. We get out there and talk for forever. Maybe two full hours. Talking about everything without worrying, laughing, making fun. I've always had feelings for her, but most of the time they're only there passively. I'm thinking about this as her leg touches mine. I take serious note of this, because when I say we were platonic, I mean it. This was abnormal. I wonder to myself if it was just an accident. Then she says, "Do you ever think of us being in love?"
Wow. Yeah, I think about it. "Yeah, sometimes I guess. What about you?"
"I just always imagined us our senior year, in love. I dunno."
We sit there a while without saying anything. "What are you thinking?" she asks me.
"I'm not sure. I guess I have feelings for you. I always have, sometimes they're more apparent and sometimes not really noticeable."
"I'm the same way."
So we talked about it some more. And more and more, I felt like this was right. It felt like the most natural thing in my life. We hung out later, and I held her hand. We cuddled and feel asleep. The next night, we go to swing in the hammock again. We cuddle, of course. I've never kissed a girl. I'm shy. Straight up, think-about-it-too-much shy. But it just felt right to kiss her.
It's the weirdest thing to say that my first kiss was with my best friend. But it seems like it shouldn't be any other way.
Things are getting better. Happiness is here, and it feels like it's the path, whatever that quote is. I turned 18 today. Legal adulthood. Still feels like I'm a little kid, though.
Oh yeah, a couple of little questions.
+ Show Spoiler +Homecoming is Saturday. We both decided that we hate dances, and don't want to go, but I told her we'd do something else fun. I'm not a fun guy. I have a hard time thinking of fun things to do, and I don't have much money to be spending. Any ideas of some fun date ideas for cheap? This will probably be an all day thing. Also, teamliquid.net is freaking blocked by my school district now, along with twitch.tv. Any ways of getting around this, by chance? My guess is probably not, but I have a hard time not watching streams or talking to you guys. 
 
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Here's a proxy that might work in your school. https://getus.in (https is needed)
In regards to the girlfriend, congrats. If only I were so lucky. However, if you're in your senior year, be wary of college and such.
edit: damn, that link got auto-hotlinked -.-
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Personally, I've always felt (bit of personal experience, some experience of friends, and some just my own feelings) that relationships which blossom from strong friendships are the best - emotionally, physically, and stability-wise. I think it's bullshit when people say "don't ruin good friendships with relationships/love", because I've always felt the polar opposite. Grats and good luck, and huge props on following an eating plan lol. I can't change any of my habits for the life of me.
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https://proxy.org. Helped me out a bunch, just pick your favorite. there are a million proxies out there, you just have to look. My school blocks TL, streams, anything and everything related to online gaming, piratebay (duh), and imgur.
Gratz on 18.
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that's great that your life is changing to the good (except that blocked website thingy).
For the fun thing I have no clue, what is not too far around your place that could eat up some time and is something you don't do too often?
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Nice going man, there's nothing like falling in love with someone you're so compatible with
Your life honestly sounds pretty amazing right now. I wish I could be you haha
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Go to a paint-your-own pottery place! Lots of fun!
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On September 22 2011 09:43 Ingenol wrote:
Go to a paint-your-own pottery place! Lots of fun!
That sounds pretty sweet! Do they have them in a lot of places? My town isn't really huge, but this sounds fun.
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Aw, how cute.
Homecoming is Saturday. We both decided that we hate dances, and don't want to go, but I told her we'd do something else fun. I'm not a fun guy. I have a hard time thinking of fun things to do, and I don't have much money to be spending. Any ideas of some fun date ideas for cheap? This will probably be an all day thing.
Also, teamliquid.net is freaking blocked by my school district now, along with twitch.tv. Any ways of getting around this, by chance? My guess is probably not, but I have a hard time not watching streams or talking to you guys
Stay in bed all day.
I don't know if that's possible or really comfortable, but I once spent a day in bed with someone special and it was probably the best day of our lives (not literally, but it's ranked pretty high).
I did nothing special. We watched movies, talked, played video-games, watched stand-up comedy. For breakfast, I made her my special waffles: Blueberry waffles with melted butter, maple syrup and a fab of oreo ice cream.
Lunch was even better as I cooked her (she stayed in bed the whole time) a mexican taco stew and a salad we got from the fruit market (1$ for a bag of lettuce!).
And dinner was my famous steaks with Monterrey jack cheese, thin spiced french angus steaks and seaweed with sour cream and chives.
For dessert, we had grapes and croissants.
It was magical, staying under the covers, warm as the weather outside blared with snow, wind and frigidness. The sun went by so fast we didn't even realize it was dark out and there was something magical about neither thinking about the day before, what we're doing tomorrow, what needs to be done and just living out the day purely in the bed, soaking the heat our body shared.
Oh and staying up as late as we can on a bag of candy valued at 60$ is really fun!
It's a hard feat to pull off if you don't come prepared to spend a whole day in bed, but I absolutely adored it.
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Ahhhh Torte that sounds so freaking amazing. I would love that, and so would she. There's nothing I'd rather do now that I've read that. Ahhhhhhh.
Problem is, our parents. They'd never let us spend a day in bed together, regardless of pretty much anything.. But I want to do that. Maybe there's a way.
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Oh haha, I forgot @______________@
Yet, despite the whole idea of having a woman in your bed may insinuate "ideas" for your parents, everything else about is niceeeeeeeeeee.
Whats the city that you live in? Any nice sight-seeing places that sort of gives you "the view"?
I'm old-fashioned, so dinner and dance is what I try to go for on sweet evenings, any near you? I'm talking swing dance and stuff at the restaurant, not clubs and shit. A lot of older people there, so no one judges because you're dancing for expression and pure enjoyment and not sexual teasing~
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We've got mountains, maybe that'd be fun.
I just had a spontaneous idea that might actually be good. Go to yard sales. Find a bunch of fun stuff, and play with it/make something/do something with it after. I'm not sure though, maybe there would be nothing fun to find.
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Sounds like that Good Will Hunting scene!
Lay out your options, what you both like to do and start eliminating due to financial/time/traveling restrictions.
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Alright. Thanks for the help ^^
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Let me know if you need any more help~
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So even those proxy websites are blocked, and I can't find one that isn't... Any other possible way of getting around it?
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Why is the girl blog section 10x bigger than the food blog section.
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On September 23 2011 08:03 Geovu wrote:
Why is the girl blog section 10x bigger than the food blog section.
I try and bridge the two together ;D
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On September 23 2011 08:03 Geovu wrote:
Why is the girl blog section 10x bigger than the food blog section.
I thought it was going to be bigger. I guess it's more of an aside, but whatever.
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