EPTTerribly sorry
So back to it.
There she was. Her and her son were staring me in the face. Well... kind of. I instantly clicked accept!
My heart started racing again. I had been thinking of her all night. It was like something had drawn her to me in my darkest hour. That saving life ring thrown from the ship (again, metaphorically speaking)
My hands trembled as i clicked her profile, went through all her pictures. Yep these are all hers. Age, 21. Check. Family, son 3 yrs old. Check.
Yep this was definitely her.
My face had lit up again, the smile from earlier had come back twice as strong, i felt... Alive Like i could do anything. I think this is what people mean when they say "high on life."
I had forgotten Tommy was on the headset when he chimed in : "You still there?"
That brought me back to reality. I turned my mic back on, voice shaking, hands frantically trying to find the unmute button. I had finally coordinated myself enough to hit the switch and managed to squeak out :
"S-she... found me" I got a bit of feedback from his mic as if he didnt hear it and pushed the headset a little closer to his ear
"Say what? No waaaaaaaaay" He laughed. "See? i told you she had a thing for you" I heard him take off his mic and start talking to his girlfriend "Yeah. that girl i told you about? the one that had the thing for Josh? yeah she tooooooootally found him on Facebook... yeah i know! crazy shit!"
My mind was in a flurry. I had frozen again. In my mind i knew i should break the ice. This is my last chance and im not losing this one god dammit!
My fingers scrambled on the keyboard as i posted a short hello on her wall:
Hey girl! whats goin on?
UGH THAT SOUNDS PATHETIC
Itll have to do though. Lets roll with it.
Tommy had come back from talking to his girlfriend and getting a drink. "Hey man, hows it going? Did she say anything yet?"
"No... not yet... Hopefully..." My voice trailed off as her smile played back in my head over and over and over. "...Hopefully shell see this..." I was nervous again. Nervous. Over Facebook. God im pathetic
"Alright... sooooooo...?" He asked in a singsongy voice. I still hadnt received any reply. Damn damn damn!
"I... i dunno. Ill tell you how it goes when i get to work tomorrow"
"DONT YOU HANG UP ON-" I abruptly hung up on him. Hopefully he wouldnt be too mad tomorrow. At this point i didnt really care. I couldnt handle him talking in my ear while my heart raced and my mind swirled and i started to sweat a bit.
A notification popped up and i clicked it.
She had replied : not a darn thing just got home from picking up Logan's new bed
Even her smileys melted my heart. Damn she was good.
I quickly typed out another reply about them going to the library earlier. Her son had been talking about it the car ride home and back. Might as well use him to break the ice right?
She replied they had went and had fun, His birthday is next month, little bits and pieces.
Hmm... where to go from here...
I replied : Tell him to make you come up and see me more often. I like seeing you, i dont see why you wouldnt.
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No reply...
The hell did she fall asleep on me or something? its only 9:30...
The chatbox popped up.
Like long lost friends we began talking, about life, love, friends, the past, everything. As if we hadnt just seen each other this afternoon.
The time ticked by.
10:30
11:19
12:52
1:29
We had talked for almost 4 hours. I knew i had work in about 6 hours so i had to wrap things up, Yet i didnt want it to end. I could only imagine what our first big face to face, one on one conversation would be like. Unlike shooting the breeze at work where there was limited time or Tommy was watching.
Joshua : So i hope you dont mind me asking...
Ashley : What is it?
Joshua : Sorry i was really nervous to talk to you earlier but i wanted to ask, would you mind... i dunno... maybe getting some dinner with me sometime and let me get to know you better?
A 2 minute pause which seemed like 4 hours...
Ashley : Id like that alot
I did a silent fist pump and almost tipped my chair over.
Joshua : So... any day good for you?
Ashley : I work every day but tuesday next week. Im sure i could get mom to watch logan for a couple hours.
And of course its the Tuesday AFTER valentines day. Dammit. Whatever, ill take my shot.
Joshua : Alright ill pick you up at 8, Hope you have a good night!
Ashley : You too! i cant wait to see you!
To be continued... again
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