EPTI once read this post in a blog of mine. It wasn't flashy and it probably would've seemed like it was hostile. Let's just say I expressed my dream of pro-gaming a bit, and I got a response not so embracing of it. And I think I understand why I did.
A dream is just a dream until it is finally satisfied. Until then, while as commendable as it is to have something to fight for, stating your dreams without visibly working for it and bragging about a dream is like bragging about the merits of your best friend. While it is cool you know that friend, you aren't that person, so your pride should be in turn support for your friend, instead of selfishly grasping onto undeserved fame. I realized that recently. It's kind of sad in a way. Dreams are your friends, but you must support them.
All my dreams of pro-gaming did was extend a part of me that wanted fame. Following my dreams of being a basketball player like MJ back as a child or being a rock star then too, to becoming a pro-gamer or awesome musician.
I realized I'm not cut out for those things. I don't have the time to spend on being a competitive gamer, nor do I want to invest that time. Learning an instrument is too expensive and frankly I wouldn't respect myself doing it because I'd not be in it for musicianship. And there are genetic reasons I could never be a basketball player.
I guess what I'm saying is, I'm another one of those guys that thought maybe he had a chance being in a booth with 300 APM and a fangirl cheering him on, and I came to the conclusion that I'm not willing to sacrifice for it, because it isn't for me and I'm not positive I'm even skilled enough. But I'm not being pessimistic either. It's not like I couldn't still fantasize about it. But I think I'd rather be cheering Tyler or IdrA and listening to Tastosis than being in that booth, if such a thing were possible.
So to TeamLiquid, I apologize for being, even if shortly, another one of those hopefuls that thought it was possible to just up and be a pro-gamer. Sorry for being a little fly in your soup.
