EPTSo picking up where I last left off I guess...
So I managed to get through college for a year studying computing and sometime during that I felt the call to ministry (Christian Church of Scotland) and decided to basically finish and get a qualification and basically wait till I turn 18 as to enter the ministry you must be 18 minimum. Also as a side note I broke up with the girl I was dating co-incidentally around this time.
So I went to work for a year, met some great people, really grew in confidence with people skills and stuff like that over that time and learned what it is I guess to live a "normal" life. Stopped playing video games like totally. I got into a lot of discussions there about God and stuff that really it wasn't even me pursuing people but them coming and asking me about my views and it was really enlightening and interesting way to think through things.
Last Tuesday was my last day working for the company and it was quite emotional as I made great friends with the people I worked with and it's weird and sad that I'll no longer be there every weekday 7 hours a day to speak to them.
So I was only working till 1) I turned 18 and 2) University started. I actually got my place at university to study theology and philosophy(University of Glasgow)about march time so that kind of meant I had to leave work about August to prepare in time for starting in sept. I never done well in school but ever since I left school thats where my real education began and I feel like yeah I could really enjoy university and get a degree out of this. I never used to be interested at all in further education but now I realise thats something that I could really enjoy and grow from.
So I'll be starting there next month and it's like I actually enjoy meeting new people now and can speak and hold conversations so I'm interested mainly in the people I'll meet and I'll not lie, hopefully a girl that I'll meet who I can pursue for a relationship. For those interested I'll be studying Christianity, Islam, religious art and french philosophy.
So moving on from that I guess I kind of need to speak about a recent experience I had with a girl for my own sake really. I had known this girl from bible study, church and really we have so much in common, shes beautiful and really on the same track of religion and life as me and yeah so I got to know her for several months just as a friend. Then like about 2-3 months ago I started to view her in a different light, I really started to think yeah it would be great to be more than friends with her. So I asked her to coffee, and we spent basically the entire day together and I mean I really enjoyed it and it seems she did to, we got to know each other a lot better, it was really the first time being together outside of group activities. Sadly then I told her you know that I liked her and would like to date her and she said no not right now since she's going away on her gap year for like 6+ months beginning next year and then like training for that this year like starting oct. So I mean yeah very disappointing. I still see her and speak to her often, even the same week that I made my blunder so it's not really awkward.
So some good came of this you know I mean I've never been good with asking girls out or expressing my interst yet I seemed to be able to this time a lot easier and it's good experience to have for the future I think. So this is really another area I've grown in since 1-2 years ago.
Another thing to mention is ministry. I've been attached to a church and been doing ministerial tasks for like the last 2-3 months which has been really interesting. I've been getting mentored from a very experienced minister in the church and we get on really well and the church has accepted me very warmly and for the first time in my life, now that I speak publically every sunday it's like theres very little if any fear. It just keeps getting better and better. I would have never imagined myself able to speak in front of people like this without fear or red-face etc... before. I used to be so under confident in every area of my life.
Some more little things. Since january I've been a vegetarian, I don't eat any meat, fish, poultry or seafood at all and to be honest it's like second nature, I don't really think about it it's just so normal to me it's not like something I go around speaking about or mentioning and I'm not really big on the whole animal rights movement and stuff so yeah, it's nice being healthier. I lost quite a bit of weight from this and also starting tomorrow I'm going to go back to the gym all going according to plan.
Right now it's strange, I've lost a lot of people, my old minister who I was great friends with I'm no longer under his charge, I no longer go to that church I went for for about 2 years, a lot of bible studies and stuff I was involved in stopped over summer, and I left my job and some of my friends moved away and soon that girl I asked out is going away and I'm kinda still thinking through this and yeah disapointed.
Yet at the same time so many new things are coming, I mean I start University something I never really aimed for in my school days (too busy playing/watching BW) and I'll no doubt meet many interesting people. I'm doing well at the ministry opportunties I'm being given and have a new minister over me and a new church around me and who knows what else this year may bring. So hope mingled with disappointment and a lot to think through. It's a tough transition but it feels like I'm starting to come out of it.
I know this is a kinda random blog post and probably boring to many but meh what else are blogs for. Hope you enjoyed and leave a comment if you'd like and I'll be sure to respond.
Regards
TechniQ
