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So pretty much everything in school is done. I finished all my AP exams, and now there's not much to do. I'm happy about going to college (Syracuse, woot woot!), going to Korea over the summer, and just not doing anything. But then I thought about home and how it was never going to be the same again, how I'll never see my parents everyday, the things they've done for me, all in all just the small stuff that I've taken for granted. Of course, it's cliche that I say those things but I guess there's a reason it is one. Today was Mother's Day, but my mom was busy meeting up with some people. And yes, we did give her a gift  . So my older brother came home from college (Emory), and so him, my sister, my grandma, and I went out to eat at a buffet. My grandma is a mother too! The food was good, and we came home and then I started to miss my parents a lot,I mean they were only gone for like 5 hours but still... actually, it wasn't the first time I felt this, they were gone for a week about two weeks ago and it was just so weird not seeing them. When they came home I just embraced them for a really long time, I have no idea why I'm feeling like this. I'm going to a good out of state school which has always been a dream of mine but now I'm getting this crazy depression. On top of that, I just feel bad leaving home b/c my brother's already far away and then I'm going out too. My younger sister will be home with parents, hopefully she can manage. She's a good kid, I always want to treat her better but it's really hard to actually put it into practice in stressful times, and same with my parents. Oh, and about siblings, ever since my brother came home, she has been almost completely ignoring me and hanging on to him all the time. I love them both a lot, but I've always felt like I was out of place. I've tried to hang with my brother since he came home and it's been cool, but sort of disappointing :/
And then, there's a girl. Yeah, girls and TL aren't the best mix, but she's going away too and probably not coming back. I've never fallen so hard for a girl, and I honestly thought I was over her. We used to be really close and I guess we still are, but she's changed. For example, whenever I had a problem, she would want to know what it was, and now she doesn't really care. I just read another blog on TL and Rekrul said something about how girls can make a guy jealous. So I was talking to her and asked her what she was doing and she's telling me how she's talking to this one guy, something she's never said, and she went into all this detail that I did not care about. I talked to her yesterday and I had that nostalgia of the old times with her and it was good in the sense of hope and that maybe it could go back, and then the reality that it was useless. I showed her all my feelings towards her, and it seemed mutual, and she's told me some stuff I will never forget. But now, whatever she's told me before doesn't pertain to our relationship now. How people change...
Anyway, so have any of you all started to miss your family and the close ones when moving far away? How did you all cope, and will it get better any time soon?
 
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United States24772 Posts
On May 10 2010 12:16 il0seonpurpose wrote:
I've never fallen so hard for a girl
This wasn't intentional was it?
BTW don't worry it all feels strange now but it will be awesome.
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Korea (South)17174 Posts
leaving things behind = new opportunities to meet new ppl, which is good
being physically distant from your loved ones aint all that bad, thats what phones and the internet is for
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Korea (South)17174 Posts
On May 10 2010 12:18 micronesia wrote:Show nested quote +On May 10 2010 12:16 il0seonpurpose wrote:
I've never fallen so hard for a girl This wasn't intentional was it? BTW don't worry it all feels strange now but it will be awesome.
true
going out into the world on ur own for the first time can be quite scary, but u'll soon realize how awesome it feels
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Hong Kong20321 Posts
its not scary at all man so funn
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FREEAGLELAND26782 Posts
G'luck with the girl.
I'm in the same situation as you time-wise, about to finish school (except for I still have APs and teachers are like "hello do more work") and one of the few things I'll care about is tennis. Ready for summer (tennis and jobs and studying oh my) and college in the fall, after all the bureaucracy is worked out.
As for the question you ask at the end, I moved to a boarding (magnet?) school at the beginning of my junior year, and I've spent the last three summers working at a scout camp in the mountains away from home. Though I've never been one for sentimentality and missing family too much and stuff like that, I know you'll adjust soon enough. Just look forward to this new part of your life, and keep in touch with what you liked/loved about the old.
glhf ziziyO~
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motbob
United States12546 Posts
I left home at age 10, but I still don't feel cut off from my parents. That really won't happen until I get a job and start paying rent. This is what college is for, man. It's a transitional period where you learn to live on your own without supporting yourself. Learn to do your own laundry, make your own meals... and be happy that you can still come home every summer. The real test is four years away, not three months away.
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I always had unlimited freedom at home and there have been times while my parents were away lots for business and stuff so moving away was like almost no difference for me
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i never felt homesick because skype lets you see and talk with people anywhere
still scary to know you are the only one whos left to deal with shit that you cause
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