EPTBut we just got straight into it; our childhoods, the struggles, the hopes, the dreams. It's wonderful to be able to have a conversation that digs deeper than the usual chit-chat.
I still hardly know you, but the words we shared leave me wanting more.
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We were both looking for different things, and tried to find them in each other. It was a weird experience. Both of us wanted each other, but couldn't find anything worth keeping. I guess it was just a surface attraction. I didn't let you get any closer, and I didn't want anything deeper. So, we moved on. Maybe another day. Til' then, have fun.
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I'm sorry. You opened up your world for me and I was too young and stupid to know what to do in it. I wasn't looking to find love, I was looking to find lust. You were past that stage, but you allowed yourself to keep that facade up in hopes that I would find something and stay with you.
I wasn't looking for it. I was just looking for the next time we could be in bed. I'm sorry.
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If I could do things over again with only a single person, I'd do them over with you. Remembering all the dumb-ass things I did makes me palm my face and laugh and the absurdity of it all. Hahaha sorry, girl. I wish I was more mature when I met you. You got the shit-end of the stick.
It sucks because now my previous actions have stunted our conversations. Both of our surfaces have hardened. Digging's going to be a slow and delicate process. But there's gold down there.
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My god, did we have fun! Those days are still some of the happiest days of my life. But then again, at those ages, it's hard not to.
You said I was different. I was. It's hard not to be after five years. You've been busy with school and your studies. I've been busy correcting myself and cleaning up.
That crazy wild boy you knew is still alive. He's still smiling and ready to come out. But he knows the damage he can do, so he calmed down a bit. He actually thinks about his actions now, can you imagine? Hahahahahahahahaha. Growing up sucks, doesn't it?
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