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Kenpachi
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
United States9908 Posts
July 30 2013 00:08 GMT
#1
There comes a time every so often that I feel like doing absolutely nothing. It feels like I'm fading away, everything is pointless and I just want to curl into a ball. I think it's a severe case of boredom but this is reoccuring and although it doesn't last for more than a week or a few days, it happens and I just feel unproductive and dead. Maybe it's loneliness? I remember reading that extroverts get exhausted from being alone and I honestly think I'm an extroverted dude (or share that trait atleast where I tire). I feel guilty when I try to enjoy my time so I think it's also a sense of being lazy. I really don't know, I'm just thinking about it and I want the feeling to go away for good and that is all. Could be fatigue, I don't know.

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Nada's body is South Korea's greatest weapon.
wanghis
Profile Joined July 2011
United States320 Posts
July 30 2013 00:18 GMT
#2
have you tried jerking it?
是那种想到他每天训练14个小时好辛苦就很心疼就想给他揉揉肩煲煲汤的那种爱
Chairman Ray
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
United States11903 Posts
July 30 2013 00:20 GMT
#3
How do you feel guilty when you enjoy your time? Is it that you want to accomplish something more productive?
Drizzt3
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
United States189 Posts
July 30 2013 00:51 GMT
#4
That actually sounds alot like depression dude to be honest
"Before my time is done I will look down at your corpse and smile."-Brad Pitt (Achilles)
sLideSC2
Profile Joined July 2012
United States225 Posts
July 30 2013 00:55 GMT
#5
hey alot of us feel like that. you aren't alone,
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Kenpachi
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
United States9908 Posts
July 30 2013 01:02 GMT
#6
On July 30 2013 09:20 Chairman Ray wrote:
How do you feel guilty when you enjoy your time? Is it that you want to accomplish something more productive?

Possibly, I guess it's the idea that i could be doing something else but I don't really want to do anything.

On July 30 2013 09:51 Drizzt3 wrote:
That actually sounds alot like depression dude to be honest

I don't think I'm under depression, this is something that occurs sporadically in a way.
Nada's body is South Korea's greatest weapon.
Torenhire
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
United States11681 Posts
July 30 2013 01:08 GMT
#7
Just because you've got "depression" doesn't mean you're depressed 24/7. He's pretty accurate in his suggestion. Take it from someone with depression

don't tell TL, tell a therapist or someone who can actually help you do something about it.
SirJolt: Well maybe if you weren't so big and stupid, it wouldn't have hit you.
Burrfoot
Profile Blog Joined July 2012
United States1176 Posts
July 30 2013 01:19 GMT
#8
Get addicted to and subscribe to a MMO! Depression solver + diabetes in one!
http://us.battle.net/d3/en/profile/Davlok-1847/career
Kenpachi
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
United States9908 Posts
July 30 2013 01:29 GMT
#9
On July 30 2013 10:08 Torenhire wrote:
Just because you've got "depression" doesn't mean you're depressed 24/7. He's pretty accurate in his suggestion. Take it from someone with depression

don't tell TL, tell a therapist or someone who can actually help you do something about it.

lol i didn't self-diagnose myself with depression when i made this blog, I just wanted to vent something people might be able to give me advice for.
Nada's body is South Korea's greatest weapon.
MarklarMarklarr
Profile Blog Joined January 2013
Fiji226 Posts
July 30 2013 01:31 GMT
#10
That is the time when you are supposed to trip on LSD or smoke copious amounts of weed(sativa). At least that helps me.
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Race is Terran
Profile Blog Joined May 2013
United States382 Posts
July 30 2013 01:34 GMT
#11
On July 30 2013 10:29 Kenpachi wrote:
Show nested quote +
On July 30 2013 10:08 Torenhire wrote:
Just because you've got "depression" doesn't mean you're depressed 24/7. He's pretty accurate in his suggestion. Take it from someone with depression

don't tell TL, tell a therapist or someone who can actually help you do something about it.

lol i didn't self-diagnose myself with depression when i made this blog, I just wanted to vent something people might be able to give me advice for.

why don't you treat it as something that has symptoms similar to depression?
PhoenixVoid
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
Canada32740 Posts
July 30 2013 01:40 GMT
#12
I'm not a psychiatrist or a doctor, but the symptoms resemble depression, and I know a few close friends who are afflicted with the condition, and they all retold me how they felt the same. Try reaching out to a medical expert or a therapist for some help, because languishing in bed or playing video games and doing drugs aren't going to solve anything. Of course it may be just a case of the blues, but as a fellow TL'er, I hope you find some help.
I'm afraid of demented knife-wielding escaped lunatic libertarian zombie mutants
Mothra
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
United States1448 Posts
July 30 2013 01:43 GMT
#13
On July 30 2013 10:19 Burrfoot wrote:
Get addicted to and subscribe to a MMO! Depression solver + diabetes in one!


lol worst advice ever.
MountainDewJunkie
Profile Blog Joined June 2009
United States10341 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-07-30 02:02:39
July 30 2013 02:02 GMT
#14
Your first problem is attempting to arbitrarily label yourself as an extrovert. There must be more to you than this kind of self-identification
[21:07] <Shock710> whats wrong with her face [20:50] <dAPhREAk> i beat it the day after it came out | <BLinD-RawR> esports is a giant vagina
babylon
Profile Blog Joined April 2011
8765 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-07-30 02:02:45
July 30 2013 02:02 GMT
#15
Pick up a creative hobby (e.g. writing, drawing, painting, origami, guitar, whatevs). It does wonders for that unproductive feeling.
Kenpachi
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
United States9908 Posts
July 30 2013 02:23 GMT
#16
On July 30 2013 11:02 MountainDewJunkie wrote:
Your first problem is attempting to arbitrarily label yourself as an extrovert. There must be more to you than this kind of self-identification

mph. I've been delving into what kind of person I truly am so things like the introversion extroversion thread in the General Forums really interested me. I actually got a 50/50 result there on the meyers briggs tests and stuff but I think I'd classify myself as an extrovert over an introvert solely because I prefer a larger group.

Other things I've learned? I'm fairly self-centered (self aware?), arrogant rather than confident (how fix), stubborn.. People say I generally look disinterested in whatever I do. I'm pretty optimistic and hopeful. I have terrible perception of other people. I'm usually wrong when it comes to understanding other people. I know I'm inexperienced when it comes to anything. I've been sheltered and I know I don't know that much. I tend to hang out with not just 1 group of friends but different groups.. I'm supposed to be pretty creative and I don't like claiming others work as my own. I am very prideful ... and more.. Is that the self identification you were looking for o_o..?
Nada's body is South Korea's greatest weapon.
MountainDewJunkie
Profile Blog Joined June 2009
United States10341 Posts
July 30 2013 02:46 GMT
#17
I don't know, I think life kind of sucks sometimes and basically the only thing you can do is something else you waste hours if not years wallowing in the overwhelming circumstances of your reality.
[21:07] <Shock710> whats wrong with her face [20:50] <dAPhREAk> i beat it the day after it came out | <BLinD-RawR> esports is a giant vagina
QuanticHawk
Profile Blog Joined May 2007
United States32051 Posts
July 30 2013 03:46 GMT
#18
that's depression homie. consider talkign to a therapist if it bothers you enough to post a blog and it's been a thing for you for that long
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Staboteur
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
Canada1873 Posts
July 30 2013 04:49 GMT
#19
On July 30 2013 11:23 Kenpachi wrote:
Show nested quote +
On July 30 2013 11:02 MountainDewJunkie wrote:
Your first problem is attempting to arbitrarily label yourself as an extrovert. There must be more to you than this kind of self-identification

mph. I've been delving into what kind of person I truly am so things like the introversion extroversion thread in the General Forums really interested me. I actually got a 50/50 result there on the meyers briggs tests and stuff but I think I'd classify myself as an extrovert over an introvert solely because I prefer a larger group.

Other things I've learned? I'm fairly self-centered (self aware?), arrogant rather than confident (how fix), stubborn.. People say I generally look disinterested in whatever I do. I'm pretty optimistic and hopeful. I have terrible perception of other people. I'm usually wrong when it comes to understanding other people. I know I'm inexperienced when it comes to anything. I've been sheltered and I know I don't know that much. I tend to hang out with not just 1 group of friends but different groups.. I'm supposed to be pretty creative and I don't like claiming others work as my own. I am very prideful ... and more.. Is that the self identification you were looking for o_o..?


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I'm pretty optimistic and hopeful.


This, the ironic firefly floating in a cave of blackness.

...the not-overly-pretentious-and-cryptic translation to that is:

That's literally the only good thing you said about yourself. Otherwise, it's disinterested, terrible, wrong, inexperienced, sheltered, etc... And that's ironic, for reasons I hope are self-evident.

If I didn't suspect you were still a teenager I'd suggest that you and I go on a random excursion to Spain or Ireland or somewhere for a month and get some perspective on life... because I think you and I are partly in the same boat, where we've figured out enough of the life we've lived so far to be bored of it, and a massive and dangerous change of scenery and being surrounded by strangers would do us some good.

IN ANY CASE good luck, sir! If you care enough about yourself to ask total strangers for help and advice, I think you're a better person (and not as inexperienced or disinterested) than you think you are.
I'm actually Fleetfeet D:
XXXSmOke
Profile Blog Joined November 2004
United States1333 Posts
July 30 2013 05:04 GMT
#20
Have you ever played Magic the Gathering or any CCG?

I found that to be a great solution to the problem as it killed two birds with one stone, A new game to discover+ to play it you have to go to tournaments and be social.
Emperor? Boxer disapproves. He's building bunkers at your mom's house even as you're reading this.
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