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Open heart surgery and pushing for GM

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Akuji
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
United States34 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-06-28 07:31:28
June 26 2013 04:01 GMT
#1
This is my first Blog I don't know if there is a right way or wrong way to set up a format for blogging.

Hi all my name is Joe ( Akuji ) Cox. I have all ways wanted to to hit GM. Right now I am a high masters player I play Zerg. I have been planning to have Open heart one that will have a lot of risks to it. I feel this is a good way to help my mind and maybe give some insight for others.

I have not been born with the best of cards ( Side note this feels strange I think i will try to keep putting side bits into this blog when they pop up maybe. ) I have had 4 major open heart surgeries 2 major spine surgeries I am 22 years old I am someone who wants to keep pushing the limits they are given as I don't think sitting around and not doing something is a good thing.

I thank you all who read and post I will try to update this daily. Some days will be good and other not so good as that's what you can when you push your body and in this case your mind. So with this It seems I have a set amount of time to try and hit GM. I have loved this game from the first time i played Starcraft 1 even before BW. Then I learned of Bw and started to play ( UMS ) User map settings. Then a friend downloaded the Iccup Ladder for me.

First night of posting. Will take time to learn and will have my girl friend look over the grammar spelling is not the best after you play 9+ hr's of ladder. I will Edit on a latter date.

I know there is so much more to put in terms of who I am and all that good stuff will do that when I am not falling asleep.

Today on the ladder I lost so much right now Z v P 39% Z v T 47% Z v Z 62% dropped close to 200 or maybe more ladder points. At the end of the day my mind kind of broke a bit I know and understand it's hard to Hit GM but i feel so bad as last season i was hitting Gm's and top masters with close to a 62% win rate. I have had an infection for 3 + weeks and with how my body is I just have not been playing well maybe? But I don't feel that is the best explanation for my results.

You guys know that point when your playing and you lose after being in a good spot and then you feel lost what can be done or what other moves did I need to make then you want to cry a bit? Well I know that feeling now fun times!

If people want to send tweets or P.M's I will Tweet back. The same go's for the stream.

Part 2

So the day after i started this blog I still felt down making the bad move to stay up all night passing out around 4:30 Am.

I then woke up at 8:00 am feeling good there. However I took that night to watch .hack Sign something i tried to watch before but all ways gave it up so I powered out 12 ep's of the show. Plus I still got in 10 games some where 45 min macro match's in Z v T so I lost to tank raven widow mine why keeping him on 3-4 base why i mined out the map of gas had a 15 k min bank and 7k gas bank but no understanding on how to break a 3-3 mech player with raven's.

I did have a good time using viper roach hydra with 10 sw's on his 4th why pulling his widow mins up 1 by ... 1 and his vikings but at last I lost GG!

reading some of t he post's people made was real nice I wanted to give thanks for that when your not feeling the best it's nice to see people showing support.

So let's get into today I had about 8 hr's o sc2 Z v Z I feel good with even when I know my timings are off I can play around it. Z v T all but one game where me trying to out macro the T about a 1-3 trade rate in games trying a 2ed macro hatch at the 3'rd. I was thinking if the zerg can play in Ling bling muta a bit longer before teching to ultra infestor as the T will start there death push when they get there 3'rd base up. MMMM.

Me and my Girlfriend spent a good amount of time hanging out having fun but he was felling abit upset about the upcoming open heart surgery as I leave on the 2'rd to get some tests done on my lungs. I understand she's worrying about me and my health and feels bad talking to me about how she's feeling. (Side note. All ways talk with your girlfriend or boyfriend I must say I am real lucky we have not had one fight and going out for over a year talk with your spouse offten.)

O maybe you guys will like props to this guy. So on the ladder this guy starts BMing off the bat fucking zerg trash ... go burn in hell low master shit head ... and more and more. So he go's for D.t's I hold with 7 drones lost keep my 3'rd He then blink stalker allin's with archon's I wanted to see if i go spire thinking he was going to take a 3'rd after the D.t's if it was a good responce I lose HARD!
[Carvtr] TaylorSwift: I would really like to apologize
for what I said
I get angry when I lose
tell myself I'm low masters shit
make myself angrier
then redirect everything I say to myself to whoever is my next opponent regardless of race or actual skill level
I feel bad when I do it
which is thankfully rarely
I feel really bad about saying that shit to you and didnt mean any of it
You: Your ok


Thanks for reading!


https://twitter.com/AkujiUs

http://www.twitch.tv/asgauard

padfoota
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
Taiwan1571 Posts
June 26 2013 04:18 GMT
#2
You have a goal and a girlfriend
Stop procrastinating
Akuji
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
United States34 Posts
June 26 2013 04:53 GMT
#3
Yes she is great and I will try my best! Think I will watch snute a bit he's a real nice and good player.
NarutO
Profile Blog Joined December 2006
Germany18839 Posts
June 26 2013 07:38 GMT
#4
Lots of times as you progress, you will either hit a plateau and not get better (at least from your own point of view) or you get stuck, because your strategies don't work. I don't know if it occurs for you the same it does for me (as I'm Terran) but different level of players are completely different in their response to certain situations. When a minedrop can work well against high master or hellbat drops against low-gm, a high gm (top 50 , top 30) will have a very good and crushing response for you.

Sometimes its good to have some variance in your game, try new stuff, maybe mix in a cheese or a timing from time to time, so you can learn different reactions to your play and understand them and their reasoning to do certain things. If you feel like you don't get any further, take your time and play reverse matches with a friend, learn basics of other races so you can understand their concept , their timings and strategy and learn to read them.

Good luck with GM!
CommentatorPolt | MMA | Jjakji | BoxeR | NaDa | MVP | MKP ... truly inspiring.
rEalGuapo
Profile Joined January 2011
Germany832 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-06-26 08:33:21
June 26 2013 08:32 GMT
#5
GL with hitting GM dude!

Everyone has bad days and drops a few ladder points every now and again (except for Stephano).
I noticed that whenever something major was on my mind (messed up an exam or too little money for too much month) I played A LOT worse. When everything was fine and I was in a good mood I could go 25-5 however (also high master at the time)
So don't worry and just keep going!

Maybe you could profit from my mindset for workouts: "I don't work out today to be strong today but to be stronger next month."

You should keep in mind that a bad day means that you still learned something and you can try to find a reason and fix it, if it is unfixable or there maybe is no reason you should just shrug and don't give it any more thought.

One step and then another!
FFW_Rude
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
France10201 Posts
June 26 2013 09:11 GMT
#6
Good luck with everything. can't give you advice but i really wish you luck.
#1 KT Rolster fanboy. KT BEST KT ! Hail to KT playoffs Zergs ! Unofficial french translator for SlayerS_`Boxer` biography "Crazy as me".
Akuji
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
United States34 Posts
June 28 2013 07:37 GMT
#7
@rEalGuapo Thank you for your kind post and your mindset is real close to mind as I had to train my body to to get to the point I am at now and it's real close to how one much play sc2 and help's a lot to keep that in mind.

@FFW_Rude thanks man I will add a lot more to this blog and I hope it can be a good place for people learn how to improve there play and over all mental health.

@Type|NarutO I did mix in some cheese today was nice helped me relax a bit thank you for your post. I need to remove the other Blog I put as I thought making a update with the bog's might add it to this blog but it made a new one my bad.
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