EPTWe're just about to pass midnight over here and I'm turning 26 in a few minutes.
This afternoon on my trip back home after staying at my parents place for the weekend, this song played in the radio.
"Make me feel better when I'm feeling sad
Tell me I'm special even though I know I'm not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I'm so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
I love you"
Those lines made me think about what I went through during the last 12 months.
Regarding this post is technically visible to everyone I dont want to get into details. Cut down to basics it was about me dropping out of school for almost a year, breaking up with my daughters mommy and falling into a deep hole of depression (and close to killing myself on some very bad days -.- ).
So what about Starcraft?
Close the end of 2011 I was a noob in silver league, not really connected to anything or anybody in StarCraft and just enjoying the game from time to time. While browsing Teamliquid.net, at some point I found out about SCVRush.com and started playing in their Bronze/Silver/Gold tournaments. It was not what I would call successfull but really fun everytime. I kept staying closer to the community and started hanging around on their streamchat almost everytime they had a tournament running. Very often, being able to sit in front of my PC, watching Starcraft and chatting with like minded people was my highlight of the day/week.
In the meantime I evetually got a bit better at the game (still only platinum league scrub) and met some awesome people.
I can say Starcraft gave me a competitive environment, a lot new friends and so many hours of fun, pleasure, competition and motivation and thus overcome the feeling of being meaningless.
Sure, I have a couple really good friends in real life too and I won't go as far as saying getting back on track would have been impossible without SC2, TL, SCVRush and everything that came with it. But it would have been much harder and far less enjoyable!
Now I am back to life: I started working out again, began rockclimbing&bouldering, going out more and meeting more people (yes, in real life ;p) and also back to university.
Tonight is the night I want to say thank you to a bunch of people who helped me on that way. Some of you might not even know about how important youre presence was/is for me!
Thank you Eillyrea (Sahra) for hanging around on skype with me for so many hours. Getting to know you gave me a new view about life. Even though you create really awkward moments from time to time, it was (almost) always fun with you
Thank you Dexi (Nelle) for always being so nice. We had so many nice talks and much fun with our sometimes unconventional way to talk to each other :D Oh and I think you have a really nice voice ;p
Thank you BelleNOiR and Wardi for putting so much work, blood, money and (at least for Belle) tears into StarCraft with your casting/streaming and overall content creation. It is nice to have some guys like you to look up to. Also having the chance being part of your communities makes me feel good!
Thank you Vogin for bringing SCVRush to life and being the guy you are. I'm sorry for being such a lazy ass, but I hope I can help out more after the end of this semester. Promise! *fingers crossed*
Thanks to Wham for being a nice admin *HIGH PAW*
Thanks to Fluttershy for being the Brony you are *fondle your fluffy fur*
Still: Meet you next Saturday! >:o)Thanks to Jesse and Deuce for appreciating me being annoying on chat while you stream.
Thanks to all the other nice people in the SCVRush and BelleNOiRtv chats (stream & ingame channels), it is always nice to meet you <3 Aviend, Izelude, Tigerclaw, Cridili/Wolf, jalkloben and Yahweh to name a few <3
And not to forget: Thank you TL.net for being such a good resource, not only for StarCraft and eSports, but also for so many things about life.
I actually teared up quite a bit while writing this :')
