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hypercube
Profile Joined April 2010
Hungary2735 Posts
December 18 2010 19:16 GMT
#21
On December 18 2010 20:00 Nokarot wrote:
I guess I never quite thought of that. I guess it really depends on how well they explained it. When I type, I have a lot of time to reflect on what I'm going to say. When I try to explain my problems to people in person, therapist included, I lose my train of thought constantly and fail to make sense in many ways, ending every sentence with "... or something, I don't know."

I don't think I'd be the type of person to kick someone when they're down, but if they failed to explain it properly then I'd probably be really hurt. The more and more people I talk to about this, though (as well as posting on this forum) the more practice I'm getting in being able to form these words. Eventually I hope to come clean to everyone, but its easier and easier to find the proper words the longer I wait.


That sounds reasonable. And there's a huge contrast between this attitude and saying "I'll never forgive myself". I still think you are being extremely harsh to yourself. More than you would to anyone else. And I just don't think it's fair.
"Sending people in rockets to other planets is a waste of money better spent on sending rockets into people on this planet."
HeadhunteR
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Argentina1258 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-12-18 19:30:50
December 18 2010 19:30 GMT
#22
On December 19 2010 03:01 crazeman wrote:
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On December 19 2010 00:18 HowitZer wrote:
Sorry to be so blunt. There is no thing such as mental illness. The brain and therefore mind are directly connected to the body. There is only physical degeneration. You're physically degenerated to the point of your brain functioning less than optimally. The only way to fix that is eat less and eat healthier.


http://simple.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mental_illness_(alphabetical_list)

Yep, every single thing on the list can be fixed by having a nutritionist and a gym membership + fitness coach.

I do agree that mental illness might be over diagnosed (depression and ADHD are 2 big ones) but saying "mental illness" doesn't exist is pretty dumb.


this post is quite on the money. You cant sleep its cause you really arent tired your body and most importantly your brain keeps on going. You really need to get tired by doing exercise and getting tired and forcing your body to sleep cause you are too tired. The lack of sleep and the lack of Phisical training makes your mind into a mush of self hatred and the sense of not living your own life. You become a shell of your own self and you think everything is not real, you are just a fake going towards nowhere and your life seems pointless. The best you can do is force yourself into Phisical exercise and proper dieting. Stay away from any prescription drugs they only cover the problem they dont solve it. You have to shut down your brain that tells you that you are a failiure you have to think you ae the best thing in the world and believe it no matter what. That will pull you through. I had some kind of depressive cycle or experience. Last year nothing seemed to matter but I pushed on Through I kept living searching for something better and I learnt I should just think that everything will be better no matter what. After a I found out a Friend had died I thought to my self Damm life is too fucking short to be thinking everyday sucks I will believe from now on that every day is a fucking miracle Which if you think about it, it is. So yeah You can Improve man and what ever are your regrets and your fears Think that you are better than all that, you can overcome anything if you really really want it. GL man and hold on!
in The Kong line forever
CaucasianAsian
Profile Blog Joined September 2005
Korea (South)11598 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-12-19 00:02:06
December 19 2010 00:01 GMT
#23
Well, like you said before, what is done is done. There are things that you simple cannot take back. However we as people learn to forgive. I can forgive you for telling me that you had a loved one pass. That is not really an issue. When we are faced with a trauma so sincere, we don't want to hurt others any more. And where you are is serious.

It's obvious that you don't enjoy being who/what you are at the moment. I also get the feeling that you are filled with insecurity and do not have enough confidence for yourself. What I feel that would help tremendously is if you somehow sat for a while and thought about what is truly getting at you that makes you have a lack of self-confidence. Is it the lack of love in your life?

Then you have to figure out what you DO like about yourself. Do you enjoy your photos that you have made? Other art you have spent countless hours making it perfect? Maybe its something else, like a paper or story you wrote. Possibly its an ability you have, such as relating to others, or connecting with people on an emotional level? Do you like the kindness and gentleness you have for others?

I was watching the movie Angel-A a few days ago, and found this scene beautiful. Maybe you might relate with it or enjoy it.

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LuckyFool
Profile Blog Joined June 2007
United States9015 Posts
December 19 2010 00:22 GMT
#24
wow that's a really great clip makes me want to watch the movie... T_T
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