Hey guys!


You are new to this blog or missed the last couple of posts?
If you are new you should check out my first entry in which I explain the concept of this blog.
If you missed the last few entries just go to my blog and check out the missed posts.
You should also make sure to follow our Twitch.tv channel as we are streaming our practices from Sunday to Thursday at 7pm British Time.


Today's practice was boring as hell.
Unfortunately we are improving faster than our TMM ranking is rising so we're playing agsainst really bad teams at the moment.
Today we were just fucking around and still we won all of our games.
It is actually frustrating to "waste" all this time on nothing but just right clicking a bit and stomping some people that flame your afterwards. (I admit I couldn't resist doing the same at some point ^.^ They were just so horrible :D)
So yeah...What is our plan for the future?


We will soon be looking for scrimming partners to practice against.
We hope that we can find people on the same skill level and with the same mind set so that there are not fights between the teams or even really bad blood.
We're still not sure how to do this but once we bumped our TMM rating up to like 3.2k or 3.3k I think we should just go and find some good teams.

(btw. It's 1:40 am here..I'm super tired)



Second thing is that we will have severe problems playing the Starladder next week as it is on Wendnesday again and the referee just ignores us.
We want to postpone the matches but everytime I write him a message or ask on the forum he ignores me. They don't even give information out in English.
(Google translator for the win man!)
So what's probably going to happen is that we will drop out of Starladder due to some referee ignoring us which makes us unable to postpone the matches for like 2 hours.

In general Starladder and the communication with the Russian speaking teams has been really annoying.
The captain of the first team we played tried to blackmail us and said he would report us for flaming if we didn't give them a default win.
Obviously we did not and completely stomped them in the end but just the fact that he tried to blackmail us and the referee completely ignored this is really sad.
When the second team tried to talk me into manipulating the results of our matches so them and us could get through the group stage I really lost all my faith in the participants and just wanted to get over with it.

Obviously yesterday I was still all happy and stuff because we played really well but looking at all of this now it makes me sad that we might drop out of the whole thing just because of our nationality.
(The referee only ignores me..Not the other captains..)



Even though this is all quite unfortunate I really start to be a fame bitch and I like to interact with people from Brutal Insanity who follow our doings or even people on Team Liquid.
Every time I wake up I look at this page and check if I got any more comments on this and how many people viewed it.
It is so motivating to know that there are actually people supporting you and your dream.
Especially for people in my age it can be quite hard to seriously consider going pro in this just because I will have to make a pretty big decision next year but still I am not 18 and can therefore not decide anything on my own.

My parents do not like the idea of me playing games for money at all and therefore they always try to convince me to stop all this.
I guess this is something everyone who tries to follow his dreams has to go through as parents seem to think they alyways know the best thing to do for their child.
But hey..I believe in my team and in me and I will put every bit of effort into this until I realise I either archieved it or have no chance of doing so anymore.

(Wow...I'm starting to go deep when I'm tired huh?!)


But anyway. I made the decision now and I will openly show it.
Next time people ask me about my dream I will not tell them about some computer science shit I am studying at the moment but I will honestly say that I am playing DOTA 2 and that I seriously consider to make a living with the best hobby I ever had in my life.



And just as I said...I am just writing my thoughts down here and I don't structure it.
So..Laura? Thanks a lot for supporting me and I am very happy to have you as my best friend.
You probably don't understand a single shit of all the things I tell you but you always cheer me on and have a single-man party with me when we win something again (or at least you act like you're seriously happy about it )

Also thank you Long,Robin,Chippy,Beana (just so nobody thinks I prefer one of them I ordered them by their position in the team: Carry-Full support) for playing with me every fucking day and making all this possible.
I know I sometimes have super weird ideas and I fuck shit up massively but in the end you always cheer me on and help me to recover from this..

Well..I guess this is not true lol.
See guys! I'm that tired I even think you support me!
You always flame me like mad men Ô.o



I guess this is all very weird now and a lot of you will struggle to follow my thoughts but at this point I also want to thank YOU!
Yes you.
The one who is reading this at the moment.
You're supporting me, too!
Everytime I see all these views and the few comments on here I am more motivated and want to bring you even better news.
And this is why I need to improve.
I need to improve so at some point you can be the guy saying "Yeah man! I already knew him when he was still a little blogger on teamliquid.net!"
Thank you!
I hope you will always keep supporting me and everyone else in E-sports.

No matter how much you might hate somebody because he threw your favourite player out of some tournament. (I was always super mad at the guy defeating TLO again Luckily he finally started winning :D) Support him!
Just shoot him a little well played on twitter.
Or cheer him up with a comment on his facebook page when he lost an important match.

(btw. sorry for saying he all the time! I love you women and girls out there even more! )

Even just watching his stream will contribute a little bit.
The players are not the ones controlling the faith of Esports.
It is you! Me! Us!
The viewers and supporters have everything in their hands.
We are the ones who can make dreams come true.
So please. Please do it!


Whatever..I guess I'm going deep again..Gotta change the name back to "Value of Depth" soon I guess

Thanks for reading this guys!
Looking forward to practice tomorrow.


Deep questions? Deep answers!


NoLuck out!

P.S.: It's 2:12 am now..Don't go too hard on me with the grammar and all..