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Motivation:
Hi guys, it’s me again…
+ Show Spoiler +Like anyone knows who I am
For those of you who have no clue who I am I’ll give you an introduction. My real name is Sam but all of my close friends call me Simba. I’m 18 years old and a junior at a community college. I’m currently taking 17 credits on a quarter system, my classes include O-chem, bio, and logic.
Anyway back to my problem. Around a month ago I started having a serious loss of motivation in regards to schoolwork and in general life. It’s the kind of feeling that I imagine depressed people have, except for the fact that I’m not sad and I have no desire to kill myself. If I was to self-diagnose myself, I would have to say that this stems from the fact that many major life questions will be coming up shortly and I just feel like freedom is coming to an end.
When I was 16 I started going to college and immediately I fell in love with chemistry. The teacher was really nice and for some reason it just clicked. I decided that I wanted to take chemistry classes and in the end decided upon being a pharmacist. In the summer I will have to take my PCAT test and shortly after apply for pharmacy school. However, while this might excite people it holds absolutely no joy for me. Pharmacy school has become just another task that I will need to complete, school has become just another task.
This lack of drive when it comes to school is what worries me. Yet at the same time I can’t bring myself to really care. Even If I apply to pharmacy school and I don’t get in, what’s the worse that will happen. I’ll be 19 with almost a bachelors in chem/bio completed and I’ll have many doors open to me.
I feel like I’m meandering while I write this but, I think I ended up answering my own question. The reason I don’t have any drive is because I don’t have anything to push myself towards. Rather I am content with just floating and seeing what doors are just waiting to be opened. I’m 18 and I don’t have very much life experience and I think the fact that pretty soon I might be trapped walking down a path that I might not want to travel scares me just a tiny bit.
Steps to get back my Drive:
1. I need to start running more. I stopped about a month ago. Could be a coincedince
2. Force myself to study at least 2 hours a day. Sitting in my bedroom or on the couch being lazy doesn’t help.
3. Move more. Take a 2 minute stretch break every once in a while
4. Trade Stork off my anti-team.
NOTE: When I talk about having motivation I still have standards. Grades are important and I try to get at least a 3.5 in all my classes. Tanking my grades just closes doors and doesn’t help me at all.
 
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You should definitely have trading Stork as your #1 priority I think.
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On January 28 2013 08:39 jvo wrote:
You should definitely have trading Stork as your #1 priority I think.
too late R3 sign ups have begun T.T
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For point 2: Try to create a good environment for studying. If your room doesn't work well for you because it distracts you or because you associate it with being lazy, relaxing etc. -> go somewhere else to study or create a dedicated study area. A dedicated study area should have a desk that is not clustered with other stuff, should be well lit and generally just good for inspiration. Don't cram it in a basement where there's no room for thoughts. I prefer studying somewhere that is not my own room. I like to see people when I study so I always try to make sure to sit by a window or in a library or something like that. It kind of elevates the study time when you can let your thoughts wonder (for example about the people around you).
Just try to find an environment that makes studying easier for you. 
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On January 28 2013 08:48 JOJOsc2news wrote:For point 2: Try to create a good environment for studying. If your room doesn't work well for you because it distracts you or because you associate it with being lazy, relaxing etc. -> go somewhere else to study or create a dedicated study area. A dedicated study area should have a desk that is not clustered with other stuff, should be well lit and generally just good for inspiration. Don't cram it in a basement where there's no room for thoughts. I prefer studying somewhere that is not my own room. I like to see people when I study so I always try to make sure to sit by a window or in a library or something like that. It kind of elevates the study time when you can let your thoughts wonder (for example about the people around you). Just try to find an environment that makes studying easier for you.
lt's more of an issue of just not studying at all and just being lazy and watching TV or sleeping. In order for me to study i need to be alone without a computer and jpop or music with no lyrics.
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Whatever you do, don't go into research unless you're absolutely sure you fucking love science (just thinking this is one avenue you could be considering). You're super young, spend some time dabbling in stuff before you jump in. At some point you'll either find something that is intrinsically motivating or you'll be motivated to start earning money and settle for whatever gives you the best pay/hours so you have the ability to do what you enjoy. Spend some time traveling, trying new things out.
Tbh, pharm school seems really sad to me  . My cousin just got a pharm d and is working at a Rite Aid, his parents basically persuaded him to go due to the $$$. He makes a good living and isn't particularly sad, but I can tell he doesn't love his job or the customers. Once you go in, you can't really back out either since you'll be up to your ears in debt so make sure you choose wisely.
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On January 28 2013 12:38 ZeaL. wrote:Whatever you do, don't go into research unless you're absolutely sure you fucking love science (just thinking this is one avenue you could be considering). You're super young, spend some time dabbling in stuff before you jump in. At some point you'll either find something that is intrinsically motivating or you'll be motivated to start earning money and settle for whatever gives you the best pay/hours so you have the ability to do what you enjoy. Spend some time traveling, trying new things out. Tbh, pharm school seems really sad to me . My cousin just got a pharm d and is working at a Rite Aid, his parents basically persuaded him to go due to the $$$. He makes a good living and isn't particularly sad, but I can tell he doesn't love his job or the customers. Once you go in, you can't really back out either since you'll be up to your ears in debt so make sure you choose wisely.
pharm school is like 80k for the whole thing. I plan to live at home for a couple of years pay off all the debt and go buy a house. Hopefully there still hella cheap in the next 6 years...
And i know not to go into research. I'd get fired right away because every week in lab i break one piece of glassware. FUCKING TEST TUBES!!!!
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What forces you to commit to that right now? If only the thought about it takes so much energy out of you that you feel like a depressed person (compared to before, you aren't even close to being depressed imo), I don't think you should commit to that decision that will influence your entire life and that will take a majority of your time for the next couple of years. Because while chances are that everything will go fine and you will be happy and motivated again soon, you can never count on that and your gut feeling could actually be right and it is not the right decision to go for pharmacy school and your mental state will get even worse over time.
There are other ways to spend 6-12 months without wasting time, which require less commitment both financially and from a time perspective and may give you some opportunities to get more life experience and make up your mind about what you really want.
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On January 28 2013 15:49 Bommes wrote:
What forces you to commit to that right now? If only the thought about it takes so much energy out of you that you feel like a depressed person (compared to before, you aren't even close to being depressed imo), I don't think you should commit to that decision that will influence your entire life and that will take a majority of your time for the next couple of years. Because while chances are that everything will go fine and you will be happy and motivated again soon, you can never count on that and your gut feeling could actually be right and it is not the right decision to go for pharmacy school and your mental state will get even worse over time.
There are other ways to spend 6-12 months without wasting time, which require less commitment both financially and from a time perspective and may give you some opportunities to get more life experience and make up your mind about what you really want.
Do you have any suggestions. I feel like playing sc2 3-4 hours a day is not the best use of my time. I think next week or this week im going to start strength training and maybe join an mma gym with a couple of friends from my old highschool wrestling team in the spring.
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Why on earth would Stork be on your anti-team?? WTF?!?
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On January 28 2013 16:19 jrkirby wrote:
Why on earth would Stork be on your anti-team?? WTF?!?
-______________- I'm a sad panda. He totally killed my anti. JYP made me sweat when he performed well in one round but that was it.
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On January 28 2013 15:19 MysteryMeat1 wrote:Show nested quote +On January 28 2013 12:38 ZeaL. wrote:Whatever you do, don't go into research unless you're absolutely sure you fucking love science (just thinking this is one avenue you could be considering). You're super young, spend some time dabbling in stuff before you jump in. At some point you'll either find something that is intrinsically motivating or you'll be motivated to start earning money and settle for whatever gives you the best pay/hours so you have the ability to do what you enjoy. Spend some time traveling, trying new things out. Tbh, pharm school seems really sad to me . My cousin just got a pharm d and is working at a Rite Aid, his parents basically persuaded him to go due to the $$$. He makes a good living and isn't particularly sad, but I can tell he doesn't love his job or the customers. Once you go in, you can't really back out either since you'll be up to your ears in debt so make sure you choose wisely. pharm school is like 80k for the whole thing. I plan to live at home for a couple of years pay off all the debt and go buy a house. Hopefully there still hella cheap in the next 6 years... And i know not to go into research. I'd get fired right away because every week in lab i break one piece of glassware. FUCKING TEST TUBES!!!!
Man pharmacy school is a lot cheaper than getting a dds or md O.o. Yeah, you could pay those loans back in just a few years np. I guess my question is, why go into pharm? You need to know a lot of o-chem to get through but once you're out most of what you'll be doing is filling out orders, unless you can be a clinical pharmacist. Sounds so... sad lol.
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On January 29 2013 02:21 ZeaL. wrote:Show nested quote +On January 28 2013 15:19 MysteryMeat1 wrote:On January 28 2013 12:38 ZeaL. wrote:Whatever you do, don't go into research unless you're absolutely sure you fucking love science (just thinking this is one avenue you could be considering). You're super young, spend some time dabbling in stuff before you jump in. At some point you'll either find something that is intrinsically motivating or you'll be motivated to start earning money and settle for whatever gives you the best pay/hours so you have the ability to do what you enjoy. Spend some time traveling, trying new things out. Tbh, pharm school seems really sad to me . My cousin just got a pharm d and is working at a Rite Aid, his parents basically persuaded him to go due to the $$$. He makes a good living and isn't particularly sad, but I can tell he doesn't love his job or the customers. Once you go in, you can't really back out either since you'll be up to your ears in debt so make sure you choose wisely. pharm school is like 80k for the whole thing. I plan to live at home for a couple of years pay off all the debt and go buy a house. Hopefully there still hella cheap in the next 6 years... And i know not to go into research. I'd get fired right away because every week in lab i break one piece of glassware. FUCKING TEST TUBES!!!! Man pharmacy school is a lot cheaper than getting a dds or md O.o. Yeah, you could pay those loans back in just a few years np. I guess my question is, why go into pharm? You need to know a lot of o-chem to get through but once you're out most of what you'll be doing is filling out orders, unless you can be a clinical pharmacist. Sounds so... sad lol.
Well O-chem is probably my favorite class so far that i've taken. And its funny because the only pharmacist i really would like to do would be a clinical pharmacist/on that works in a hospital.
The reason i chose pharm school is because its cheaper, doesn't take as much time. You're not on call 24/7 and its 8 hours a day.
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On January 28 2013 16:12 MysteryMeat1 wrote:Show nested quote +On January 28 2013 15:49 Bommes wrote:
What forces you to commit to that right now? If only the thought about it takes so much energy out of you that you feel like a depressed person (compared to before, you aren't even close to being depressed imo), I don't think you should commit to that decision that will influence your entire life and that will take a majority of your time for the next couple of years. Because while chances are that everything will go fine and you will be happy and motivated again soon, you can never count on that and your gut feeling could actually be right and it is not the right decision to go for pharmacy school and your mental state will get even worse over time.
There are other ways to spend 6-12 months without wasting time, which require less commitment both financially and from a time perspective and may give you some opportunities to get more life experience and make up your mind about what you really want. Do you have any suggestions. I feel like playing sc2 3-4 hours a day is not the best use of my time. I think next week or this week im going to start strength training and maybe join an mma gym with a couple of friends from my old highschool wrestling team in the spring.
The direction I was thinking was more about some kind of internships or other small jobs which keep you active in terms of doing something on a daily basis and giving you experience in some kind of way by just letting things come to you from there and being open to fresh stuff happening and meeting new people.
A thing you can do here in Germany is called a voluntary social year and I heard a lot of nice stuff about it, it's just an opportunity for young people to spend anything from 6 to 18 months working in hospitals, services for disabled people or other welfare services, if you want you can even go abroad afaik. I don't know if there are similar options where you live, but the important thing is that you are active in some way to get motivated again, and for me personally the best way to do that is to find a daily activity/work that isn't too stressful and makes you work with other people. Also it looks good on your CV later on if you actually do some kind of voluntary or internship work during the time before you start studying.
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All that said, I'm just a student myself and I don't have huge life experience, it's just my personal opinion from what I heard from other people who went through struggles because they chose the wrong education path without taking the time to think about it and from my personal struggle with motivation and drive. I don't know you and what is important for you as a person.
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