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I can't say I've been the happiest person in the wold my whole life and after several weeks of a darkening-depression, which I just recently broke free from. I've decided, I'm going to take control of my life, instead of being a passive person like I have been my whole life, and just waiting for the hard time to blow-over, I've decided to take my life by its maw and submit it under the work of my own hands.
My first task was finding what parts of my life I don't like, and this was one of the harder parts, admitting what I don't like about myself, since I try and keep a high self imagine to ignore my own flaws, I thought... maybe that way isn't to go, rather then just ignoring what I don't like rather then changing it, I might feel more accomplished. This post I'm going to talk about how I'm going to tackle what's on my list, first.
-The first thing that I didn't like about myself was my general looks, I don't find myself too attractive, but i figure someone will eventually- so why not make myself look as best I can. This was a bit more of a shallow trait of mine that I felt needed to be fixed.
There are more items on said list but I'd rather talk about those in later posts, it is a blog after all.
So now that I know what it is I don't like- how I'm going to change it is my next step. This one was an easy one and that was change how I look. First to change was my posture, posture is something that I always look for in people, how they carry themselves tells a lot about them, such as if they're upset, tired, confident, or just don't care. My posture always reflected that I didn't care, not to say i slouch or walk funny, but I didn't keep my chin up, shoulders back, chest out, or knees straight, but not locked. I want to reflect that I'm confident in myself.
The second change is to stop biting my nails, now no one really pays attention to nails, but it's more of a hands kind of thing, so my cuticles aren't looking as through I work at a meat-packing facility. How you take care of your hands also shows quite a bit to a person, more so is apparent for girls since they polish their nails but it shows an awareness that you know what it is you touch and if your nails look brittle, it shows how little you care about what you touch with your fingers, etc. Personally I wouldn't want a girl with yellow-ish nails to hold a drink for me as I tied my shoe, I'd rather have one that had clean and polished nails. To those of you who still aren't getting what I'm talking about, just think of it as this- it's one less thing for people to get a negative implication of you, from.
Third, I should take better care of the skin of my nose. My pores look horrible on my nose and I tried home-style recipes of getting rid of things like blackheads to no avail but I think purchasing something to deal with them would be very helpful.
Forth, My hair. My hair is very similar to Jack White's, from the White Stripes. It has a very wavy look to it naturally. I think maybe if I combed it as it's drying and after, it should make it look straighter, but maybe I may leave my hair how it is.
self portrait: + Show Spoiler +
I think I'm going to wrap this post up here, but my next post will for sure be on my next change: Relationships.
  
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ha until the end there I thought this was going to be entirely superficial. GL
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A sudden burst of determination
Thoughts stirring under the lamplight
All is quiet in the darkness of night
The empty streets outside my window
call for me to be the conqueror of day
Come tomorrow I vow to change
But sleep is the night's mistress
And emotions are fleeting;
easily obscured in the mists of dreams
A yawn delivers the first sliver of doubt
Shall I storm out onto the dawn
or go gently into that good night?
The streets are overtaken by life
Motion slowly returns to the world
I yearn for my mistress once more
"Oh mistress, envelop me in your arms,
tonight as all nights before
Grant me bliss and the warmth of sleep."
If only,
I could catch determination
and store it
in a box,
before the world outruns me
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On October 27 2011 15:04 LaLuSh wrote:+ Show Spoiler +
A sudden burst of determination
Thoughts stirring under the lamplight
All is quiet in the darkness of night
The empty streets outside my window
call for me to be the conqueror of day
Come tomorrow I vow to change
But sleep is the night's mistress
And emotions are fleeting;
easily obscured in the mists of dreams
A yawn delivers the first sliver of doubt
Shall I storm out onto the dawn
or go gently into that good night?
The streets are overtaken by life
Motion slowly returns to the world
I yearn for my mistress once more
"Oh mistress, envelop me in your arms,
tonight as all nights before
Grant me bliss and the warmth of sleep."
If only,
I could catch determination
and store it
in a box,
before the world has a chance
to outrun me
solved!
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Change your diet and hit the gym
It'll A) make you more attractive
B) Make you feel fucking fantastic after a workout
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On October 27 2011 17:29 CharlieBrownsc wrote:
Change your diet and hit the gym
It'll A) make you more attractive
B) Make you feel fucking fantastic after a workout
that's not what i mean, i'm not saying im fat or such, just more of... changing how i go about my looks, pay more attention to detail... how'd you get that i felt fat, if you read the whole post?
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I recently changed my diet for weight loss and to be more healthy in general and Ive completely stopped having skin/pore problems. just cut out the junk food/soda and some of the grains. check out the paleo thread in the health and fitness subforum
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On October 28 2011 05:34 Metalreflux wrote:Show nested quote +On October 27 2011 17:29 CharlieBrownsc wrote:
Change your diet and hit the gym
It'll A) make you more attractive
B) Make you feel fucking fantastic after a workout that's not what i mean, i'm not saying im fat or such, just more of... changing how i go about my looks, pay more attention to detail... how'd you get that i felt fat, if you read the whole post?
Read the post again, he never mentioned anything about fat.
'Round these parts the "EG-Treatment" holds a lot of merit and with good reason. Frequent trips to the gym coupled with a haircut and groomed facial hair can turn any Greg into a Grack.
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On October 28 2011 07:44 Thrill wrote:Show nested quote +On October 28 2011 05:34 Metalreflux wrote:On October 27 2011 17:29 CharlieBrownsc wrote:
Change your diet and hit the gym
It'll A) make you more attractive
B) Make you feel fucking fantastic after a workout that's not what i mean, i'm not saying im fat or such, just more of... changing how i go about my looks, pay more attention to detail... how'd you get that i felt fat, if you read the whole post? Read the post again, he never mentioned anything about fat. 'Round these parts the "EG-Treatment" holds a lot of merit and with good reason. Frequent trips to the gym coupled with a haircut and groomed facial hair can turn any Greg into a Grack.
not to sound too... dark so to speak but most people who have attempted suicide say that when they plan it out, they often change their look and it makes them feel better and it helps with talking them out of it.
so there is a lot with feeling better when you change your looks up every now and again.
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yes these are good things to change
a) skin , you can fix that easily. get some womens facial wipes and wipe/rub your face with one once you get out the shower to deal with dead skin. will take 2-4 days until you see a big improvement
b) biting nails has to stop and stop now! it is definately a negative. you wouldnt want some nasty cuticles stuck up you
c) your hair in pic is freakin long, thats why its wavy. get like an inch cut off to start out with
e) posture is something i need to read about too. im sure if you browse the web there are scientific studies (not magazine trash) about "how to walk" , "how to run", "how to stand" etc. i think someone posted a link in TLHF but that was ages ago
so these seem pretty easy changes, i hope you have a nice long list of more to continue with :D
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On October 28 2011 11:58 FFGenerations wrote:
yes these are good things to change
a) skin , you can fix that easily. get some womens facial wipes and wipe/rub your face with one once you get out the shower to deal with dead skin. will take 2-4 days until you see a big improvement
b) biting nails has to stop and stop now! it is definately a negative. you wouldnt want some nasty cuticles stuck up you
c) your hair in pic is freakin long, thats why its wavy. get like an inch cut off to start out with
e) posture is something i need to read about too. im sure if you browse the web there are scientific studies (not magazine trash) about "how to walk" , "how to run", "how to stand" etc. i think someone posted a link in TLHF but that was ages ago
so these seem pretty easy changes, i hope you have a nice long list of more to continue with :D
i've never really liked short hair, and I have a small scalp issue- I have psoriasis on the left half of my forehead up over part of my scalp, so I keep my hair long to hide that, before I got it cut and everyone... I mean EVERYONE i knew asked me if I was a burn victim at one point
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hrm does it not respond to medication? i use the medicated shampoos you get at a pharmacy and they work fine for me, so long i keep using them. you could also apply moisturiser on that area im guessing? and lastly, exfoliating dead/damaged skin can speed up recovery massively (tho it might leave you sore), but thats for the face not scalp
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On October 29 2011 16:45 FFGenerations wrote:
hrm does it not respond to medication? i use the medicated shampoos you get at a pharmacy and they work fine for me, so long i keep using them. you could also apply moisturiser on that area im guessing? and lastly, exfoliating dead/damaged skin can speed up recovery massively (tho it might leave you sore), but thats for the face not scalp
you can get psoriasis anywhere on your body, but there are 4 different types, so it varies between which variation(s) you have. for me it makes my skin silvery, scaly, and flaky, so it almost looks like I always have dandruff despite my scalp looks healthier then anywhere else on my body, other than the afflicted area.
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