I'm not amazing at controlling my emotions. Especially when playing starcraft. Especially when my life isn't running so smoothly, which atm it certainly isn't. No girlfriend, I just failed my preliminary medical exams, and my mother already got on my nerves by bitching at me, about how much it annoys her that I get up so late all the time etc.. The funny part being that she did this before I was even at home, I was still in Leipzig, the city at which I go to uni and hadn't even arrived at my parents house in berlin yet.
But I'm not here to bitch or whine, I just wanted to give a little introduction. So then I played a few iccup games, after a bit of thinking whether I should improve my ZvP (my best mu with an amazing solid D+ lvl..) or my ZvT (worst mu, D lvl). And I got pretty annoyed. I guess it was my fault for playing koreans but I got pwned by D players.. pretty bad. And not in a nice kind of way, but in a series of losing vs 3 different P players with everyone going 2 gate/proxy 2 gate against me. Then I played some more games, won against some really bad players, lost against some really bad players. And I thought to myself "Fuck, have I really not improved at all?" So then I played against another D+ korean Protoss (I see now he's C- with 27-18 stats) And despite getting into a good early game position I get completely pwned the rest of the game and it was just ugly.
So then I lose it. I walk to my bed and just pound my fists on them in pure anger, but only for about 1 second because then it happens. The head of my left upper arm pops out of my shoulder and I lie there in pain, while there's nobody else at home. So I'm rolling around, not really knowing what I'm doing, trying to get my arm in such a position that the head of my arm goes in there again.. it took a bit but after about 2 min it was back in there and I just thought "... Fuck I have a problem with anger control ..." Then I went back and played some more games.. I also lost some of them but when I did, I managed to not go berzerk over it...
So there kids, take this as a lesson, it's just not worth it to nerdrage.
I'm gonna call my friend now and tell I'm not gonna make it to playing football cause my shoulder still hurts too much :/
Go for an Anger Management :D Btw, try to get a normal life back. SC is good but girlfriend is Gold. And believe me, a girl can heal you more than what you can believe.
On August 26 2009 18:35 Perguvious wrote: shit, that happens if you pound on the bed?! I do that all the time when I lose to 4pool.
never hitting anything other than people again
Well it's not the first time I dislocated my shoulder, if it happened to you once, its much more likely to happen again. First time was in a skiing accident.
On August 26 2009 18:36 MK wrote: Go for an Anger Management :D Btw, try to get a normal life back. SC is good but girlfriend is Gold. And believe me, a girl can heal you more than what you can believe.
Sounds like your nerdrage was %100 warranted. I'm sorry to hear about your problems and can relate in many ways; has me pretty depressed. I tend not to rage rather than /wrists a lot.
Lol I just checked bwchart and one of the D guys I lost to in the losing spree had a pretty amount of apm: 395 and is 11-0 in Iccup. I know some noobs spam like crazy but man 395 average is a lot...
The one I lost to after that is 9-0 And probably also way better than D... so I guess no wonder I got pwned ( http://www.iccup.com/matchlist/680671/1x1.html I think Sooos is the guy who made my dislocate my shoulder ^^)
I've also experienced very very big nerdrage in my past (especially when I was younger) and I broke like countless gamepads and been called sore loser too many times...so I understand you comepletely. But as I grew older I just stoped nerdrageing and my gameplay improved like many times over and I don't nerdrage anymore (just swear on loud) if I get really frustrated..
Only thing I ever broke was mice, I haven't broken any since I started using optical mice. But oooooh did I break ball-mice, they'd get dirty and I'd slam them on the desk as hard as I could instead of cleaning them.
... what kind of bed takes your abuse? You should really consider the beds feelings before acting out O.o I bet the bed gets you back in your sleep though! :D
Also terribly terrible nerd rage stories needs more idra !
you dislocated your shoulder and you didnt see a doctor? =/
dislocation is very serious man, your shoulder is going to be all fucked up if you keep nerdraging (not to mention youll be sleeping on the floor if you keep bashing the shit out of your bed)
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