EPTHello, some of you may know me, most may not- I am Alex aka Jedigamer/Syndicate. I'm not famous for tourneys, I've never won anything big, in fact I tend to choke anytime I reach a finals. I'm just a regular above average T/P GM player who practices on NA/Europe. I'd like to make 2 things clear before you read any further, if you choose not to read this statement.
1) I have a hot-head and have acted like an huge jerk
2) Although I am flawed -I truly am not a real bad person IRL, and love contributing and helping people out
Basically since I was younger through now I've had a huge reputation for for being a very bad mannered player. Rightfully so, as I have a terrible temper and when it tends to strike I lose all respect and just rage. I've been a total ass to countless people, and a really nice mentor to a lot of others. Again, rightfully so- I am obviously more known for playing the total asshole card. Nowadays sometimes I find myself BMing regularly, and just to get myself into the game (If I BM I have more of a reason to win, really immature), or just because people expect no different from me.
I'd like to apologize to everyone from TL.net , Bnet, Tourneys, etc that I have bad mannered. If I bad mannered you first, its almost a guarantee you didn't deserve it. It is clear that just by making an apology things are not right . I am okay with that, and willing to work hard to try to change it. I don't expect everyone to be okay with me or welcome me in any way, again I've been such a jerk.
My actions and reputation have cost me a lot of things- and as I am maturing (sadly still) I realize I've taken the wrong road can't keep walking it. It cost me partially a lot of my students and coaching potential on larger sites, it indirectly cost me a very loyal stream that supported me despite using some cheeses and playing long drawn out macro games on ladder. (I rarely cheese anymore, unless im exhausted but can't stop playing). I ended up losing my stream due to a bit of false slandering that banked on my terrible reputation, although it is not the time or place to discuss as the time has passed.
For a while I was helping a lot of people out, mostly for free, to get practice coaching. I quickly found out that I love teaching SC2 and how to make gains and break down the game for oneself (like teaching how to READ replays, not just watching them). It was never about the money with my coaching, I actually found myself giving people extra hours and such because I liked watching people improve at a new game that was so rewarding, and knowing that I helped them get there .
Anyhow, this isn't about my love of the game or my coaching or stream, it is about me making changes as a person permanently . It won't be easy, but I'm going to make them, 100%.
Here is the first couple changes I am going to make, that the community can hold me accountable to :
1) I am going to help by posting informed information in the strategy section. I have a lot to offer new and older players, as I play the game, coach it, and study it. I currently understand the game a little better than I can play it.
2) The bad manner on ladders/bnets is over. I am no longer going to make my problem my opponents, because it isn't his fault I can't focus, or my stream is lagging, or my internet is crap. I will either GG and leave or leave. This means as of Sunday afternoon, its done, gone, zip, zero.
3) I am going to post a couple guides to builds I am using on ladder, to help players who are bored of using bio vs Z and P, but don''t want to commit to a passive style.
It won't be easy, but hopefully by making this post it will be the extra thing that tilts me onto the new leaf. I truly like helping people out, and don't want to be "That jerk" when that isn't who I actually am.
