EPTI'm feeling extremely under the weather right now, trying to deal with starting at the university where I really don't feel like I fit in with the people here. I basically hoped to be able to spend most of my time hanging out at the university, since we have this place specifically made for socializing and studying. However, as it turns out, it's really fucking boring. And I mean skullsgrindingly boring to be up there. There's simply not enough room, so you're cramped and not really encouraged at all to socialize. Furthermore, I have a hard time finding friends to hang out with.
I am a weird kid, I have no doubt about it. There are some types of people that I scare away, mainly the popular kids. Now, in high-school-equivalent, this was not a problem for me at all. I was in what was probably the most tightly knit classes in our year and I found some great friends. I could just not give a fuck about all the people who didn't like me and let that be done for. At school parties I would just hang out far away from the music and talk with all the other people who had also taken refuge down there. I had a great time.
Now I need to give fucks. I need to hand out fucks big time to the people I'm spending time with. I really want to fit in, I really want to feel happy taking classes at uni. I just miss someone I don't get exhausted from even just talking to. I really miss not feeling like I'm at the wrong end of the firing range every day when I poke my head out of the door.
Not to worry though. I'll be fine, I honestly believe that. I have a really hard time dealing with the darkness of the danish winter (swedes, norwegians, canadians and russians can laugh now :D), so I know that I'm feeling way worse than I will in a couple of months. Furthermore, I still have the option of choosing another field to study where I'll fit more in. I live in a dorm with a lot of engineers, and they seem like a friendly bunch. Maybe I'll go that way. CS is open too. Point is, I'm not done for, I just feel down.
So this is my request: What do you guys do, watch or hear when you're feeling really down? Anything will do. Great songs, things to do, food to cook, funny youtube videos, you name it. Anything that makes you feel happy. Hopefully we can walk away from this depressing freaking rant a little happier.
MERRY LIQUIDIANS OF THE NAVY. CHARGE THE ION CANNONS. PAYLOAD: HAPPINESS
