[poll] card or not

She knows because idiotically i told my asshole friends seeing if they would give me the balls to talk to her but it backfired and they ended up shouting at her, and doing weird shit at her (kinda went in my favor cos she thought i was the normal one). It ended in an apocalyptically awkward meeting where she shyly waved at me while my friends talked to her friends while we stood in an eery awkward silence eventually i plucked up the courage to get her friends to go away and i told her that i liked her and she didn't really give a response apart from 'see you later' which put into mid-fuck mode, i was convinced that she liked me [and at the auditions before that her and her friends came up to and started talking to me so and i made them laugh (WIN)]. we didn't really speak after that cos it was the last day of term and i spent everyday of the holidays constantly thinking about her.

for first time in forever i was looking forward to back to school cos rehearsals had now started and i would gte to speak top her without it being forced and awkward. but on the first day back me and my friends lent on one the fences at school, she sat down along the fence on a bench, my asshole friends noticed, and i was in the middle and had nowhere to go so they started pushing me closer towards her, her and her friends started to notice and my the time i was so close to her i nearly fainted one of her friends said, 'felicity, you are being watched' she stood up looked at me and said 'Chris i dont know you well enough, please can you and your friends just leave me alone please.' I thought could have been worse.

After what felt like an eternity of not being needed for rehearsal and telling my friends to leave her the fuck alone which they generally did mine and her scene came up. I had double french before hand, the most boring lesson of the week and i was bouncing off the fucking walls the person i sit next to still hates me to this day because of that lesson. i arrived at drama studio for rehearsal i got there early because i walked so quickly because i was so fucking nervous/excited and did another lap around that part of the school. i finally got into rehearsal said all my lines way to quick and made myself look bad and then ran away before man mode had even a chance.

So i left her alone for a bit, until one day my friends were bored and enlisted the help of two girls to 'get me laid' i just wanted to leave her alone and try to talk to her ordinary but i ended up being literally DRAGGED towards her on my knees all i could do was apologize for the embarrassment they had caused her and sheepishly smile. Then she said, 'i dont fancy you chris just please leave me alone.' I went numb. I could not hear anything i just walked back to where my friends were standing and keep my face from showing any emotion at all completely ignoring anything they said.

i left her completely alone, never talking to her directly. Until recently where a normal female friend of mine who is also friends with her said if i help her get in with one of my other normal friends she would help me get in with her. during that time she got a boyfriend but it was nothing and they broke up a couple of weeks ago. until today actually my mutuall friend said that she saw her giving me some shy glances and i got a 'dont screw this up' but i refused to pay any attention since what happened last time also my friend goes on the same bus as one of her friends and she asked did i still like her, and she said if i would ask her out she would go out with me, though the source is unreliable and her big scary friends keeps staring at, dunno whether thats good or bad.