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Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
Last Edited: 2024-05-23 03:55:26
May 12 2024 21:22 GMT
#1
Snip.

***
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
Peeano
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Netherlands4987 Posts
May 12 2024 21:39 GMT
#2
Well written and I feel/acknowledge your pain as a fellow failer/sufferer lol

Fighting is the only option. Life really feels a never ending fight. You get breaks every now and then, but the moment you stop fighting you lose and there is no winning. Winning is acceptance and realization, not actually winning.

You can still make the never ending fight easier though. Making small daily life improvements can really add up. Never give in nor give up!
FBH #1!
Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 12 2024 22:00 GMT
#3
On May 13 2024 06:39 Peeano wrote:
Well written and I feel/acknowledge your pain as a fellow failer/sufferer lol

Fighting is the only option. Life really feels a never ending fight. You get breaks every now and then, but the moment you stop fighting you lose and there is no winning. Winning is acceptance and realization, not actually winning.

You can still make the never ending fight easier though. Making small daily life improvements can really add up. Never give in nor give up!

Facts. One of the first things that gets neglected for me, but I am also sure many others, is self-care. Taking the time to clean up your living area, do a skincare routine, cook a healthy breakfast, work out... all of these things tend to fall to the wayside when you're in the depths of the struggle. They seem like small things, but they really are a large component of the driving force behind the stability we enjoyed and desire. Just doing "what you should do" can be the difference between spiraling deeper into the regret/guilt cycle and staying afloat. They are the foundation that allows us to keep fighting, as you said.

Thank you for the thoughtful and affirming response 🙏
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
micronesia
Profile Blog Joined July 2006
United States24676 Posts
May 12 2024 22:55 GMT
#4
I'm glad to see you've achieved a degree of enlightenment and fulfillment despite the struggles over the years.
ModeratorThere are animal crackers for people and there are people crackers for animals.
Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 12 2024 23:40 GMT
#5
On May 13 2024 07:55 micronesia wrote:
I'm glad to see you've achieved a degree of enlightenment and fulfillment despite the struggles over the years.

Thank you 🙏 Hope you are doing well, too.
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
DarkPlasmaBall
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
United States44271 Posts
May 13 2024 15:33 GMT
#6
Beautifully written. We'll hang out soon
"There is nothing more satisfying than looking at a crowd of people and helping them get what I love." ~Day[9] Daily #100
FlaShFTW
Profile Blog Joined February 2010
United States10153 Posts
Last Edited: 2024-05-13 15:54:31
May 13 2024 15:54 GMT
#7
Good to see you feeling better.

Still need to get revenge for you kicking my ass but I suck now. Maybe you play with one hand or something idk.

Also just realized I'm beginning to encroach on my own 10k :o
Writer#1 KT and FlaSh Fanboy || Woo Jung Ho Never Forget || Teamliquid Political Decision Desk
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Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 13 2024 18:47 GMT
#8
On May 14 2024 00:33 DarkPlasmaBall wrote:
Beautifully written. We'll hang out soon

<3

On May 14 2024 00:54 FlaShFTW wrote:
Good to see you feeling better.

Still need to get revenge for you kicking my ass but I suck now. Maybe you play with one hand or something idk.

Also just realized I'm beginning to encroach on my own 10k :o

Hahaha it would be a shitshow for sure, I basically only play 2v6 comps on Blizz and sometimes noob-tier 3v3 BGH. I don't know any modern maps or meta. Officially washed af.

Looking forward to your 10k!
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
arb
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
Noobville17921 Posts
May 14 2024 06:29 GMT
#9
Hell yeah proud of you brother
Artillery spawned from the forges of Hell
Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 14 2024 15:21 GMT
#10
On May 14 2024 15:29 arb wrote:
Hell yeah proud of you brother

Long time no see <3 Hope you've been well.
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
FlaShFTW
Profile Blog Joined February 2010
United States10153 Posts
May 14 2024 15:40 GMT
#11
On May 14 2024 03:47 Jealous wrote:
Show nested quote +
On May 14 2024 00:33 DarkPlasmaBall wrote:
Beautifully written. We'll hang out soon

<3

Show nested quote +
On May 14 2024 00:54 FlaShFTW wrote:
Good to see you feeling better.

Still need to get revenge for you kicking my ass but I suck now. Maybe you play with one hand or something idk.

Also just realized I'm beginning to encroach on my own 10k :o

Hahaha it would be a shitshow for sure, I basically only play 2v6 comps on Blizz and sometimes noob-tier 3v3 BGH. I don't know any modern maps or meta. Officially washed af.

Looking forward to your 10k!

We should just go noob stomping on 2v2 fastest or something, but probably end up raging at each other when we do dumb shit.
Writer#1 KT and FlaSh Fanboy || Woo Jung Ho Never Forget || Teamliquid Political Decision Desk
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Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 14 2024 16:05 GMT
#12
On May 15 2024 00:40 FlaShFTW wrote:
Show nested quote +
On May 14 2024 03:47 Jealous wrote:
On May 14 2024 00:33 DarkPlasmaBall wrote:
Beautifully written. We'll hang out soon

<3

On May 14 2024 00:54 FlaShFTW wrote:
Good to see you feeling better.

Still need to get revenge for you kicking my ass but I suck now. Maybe you play with one hand or something idk.

Also just realized I'm beginning to encroach on my own 10k :o

Hahaha it would be a shitshow for sure, I basically only play 2v6 comps on Blizz and sometimes noob-tier 3v3 BGH. I don't know any modern maps or meta. Officially washed af.

Looking forward to your 10k!

We should just go noob stomping on 2v2 fastest or something, but probably end up raging at each other when we do dumb shit.

PM'd
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
BLinD-RawR
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
ALLEYCAT BLUES50119 Posts
May 14 2024 16:11 GMT
#13
damn dude, just glad to see you back and feeling better man.
Brood War EICWoo Jung Ho, never forget.| Twitter: @BLinDRawR
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Jealous
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
10141 Posts
May 14 2024 16:16 GMT
#14
On May 15 2024 01:11 BLinD-RawR wrote:
damn dude, just glad to see you back and feeling better man.

🙏
"The right to vote is only the oar of the slaveship, I wanna be free." -- бум бум сучка!
arb
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
Noobville17921 Posts
May 14 2024 19:41 GMT
#15
On May 15 2024 00:21 Jealous wrote:
Show nested quote +
On May 14 2024 15:29 arb wrote:
Hell yeah proud of you brother

Long time no see <3 Hope you've been well.

You too brother, i do a bit of lurking and watching artosis casts these days, but not much starcrafting anymore
Artillery spawned from the forges of Hell
pebble444
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Italy2497 Posts
May 18 2024 21:05 GMT
#16
Thank you for sharing; it was really cool meeting you and spending some time with you when we did; reading your blog makes me understand how I guess I have lived and am living similar ways to how you are, and not only us two - it makes me feel understood - stay cool man
"Awaken my Child, and embrace the Glory that is your Birthright"
WombaT
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Northern Ireland25173 Posts
May 18 2024 22:42 GMT
#17
I genuinely thought I was pretty prolific and you hit 10K in 2 years? :O

I can’t say I always agree with your takes, but I’ve always appreciated the way you articulate them, this post especially.

Had my own issues, my dad dying, having a kid, having that relationship and having a complete breakdown and a year in hospital in a fun 2.5 year crunch.

Hey 7 years later and I’m still not sure if I can get my old happy-go-lucky self back, but I sure as fuck can hang in there and be the best I can be, for myself and those in my life.

It does somewhat confuse me that our species is so afflicted with various neuroses that seem of little evolutionary benefit, or perhaps it’s merely our cultural constructions not neatly intersecting with our biology. Whatever it is it can be a fucking pain in the arse, to put it mildly…

Gonna stop before I go full ramble, but cheers for sharing and a lot of what you said absolutely resonated with me, take care man!
'You'll always be the cuddly marsupial of my heart, despite the inherent flaws of your ancestry' - Squat
Psyonic_Reaver
Profile Blog Joined June 2007
United States4336 Posts
May 20 2024 04:35 GMT
#18
Great blog and self reflection post. I recently did a round of going through my old posts myself. Good and cringy memories. Good times and bad.

Anyways, thanks and glad you're good man. <3
So wait? I'm bad? =(
Poopi
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
France12809 Posts
May 20 2024 16:32 GMT
#19
It's actually uncanny how from your 7th paragraph onwards, this feels like somebody put words on my current life.

Take care, and never stop fighting.
WriterMaru
LUCKY_NOOB
Profile Blog Joined June 2013
Bulgaria1430 Posts
May 21 2024 11:11 GMT
#20
First I skipped through it. Then I read the paragraphs out of order. Then I read them in order again... lel
Congratulations on feeling good about life again and on the new 10K!

Everything passes.. Emotions (good and bad), ladder rank, gas, life..
Make the best of it! <3 <3 <3

As the Ancient NHFFA Wisdom goes: NEVER GIVE UP! NEVER SURRENDER!
If I can get D rank by SCV only rush almost anything is possible! \o/\o/\o/\o/\o/

Much love! <3 <3 <3
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