Instead, I had to deal with my sassy hyena coworker. The inciting incident was when I had to get some fresh hot red salsa for a person with allergies. I took the deep pan out and on the counter in the back. I grabbed a new spoon and started scooping some hot sauce onto the customer's bowl...or so I thought. Somehow that burrito bowl turned out to be my hyena coworker's bowl that happened to be sitting on the same counter out in the open. Anyway, the mistake is understandable enough considering food is generally made on the line and not placed in the back. Unfortunately nature had no mercy: I was promptly stalked with snide and incredulous remarks questioning how I could possibly make that mistake, and scolded on how I should pay more attention. She even had the gall to say I'm the only one who makes mistakes when not just five minutes ago she messed up a bowl that I had to remake. Amazing. Funnily enough though I ended up messing a bowl because I was talking to her that I had to discreetly bin...but still!
I was fuming. I started angry making bowls and recklessly getting foods spilled. My manager was there saying calm down, which funnily enough, isn't what you should tell someone who's angry, but he said in an understanding and calm enough tone, "I know, I know," which did calm me down. I'm pretty sure afterwards he had a discussion with the hyena because I didn't get any flack after.
I was so sure that today was the day I put in my one week's notice, because screw working here for two more weeks after enduring so much BS. I kept working knowing my trials had only begun. Like some drama, expectations had been subverted, and I was already sucker punched by an unexpected, surprise antagonist. I knew the real hurdle going forward would've been surviving the part-time wolf getting angry in the late afternoon...but there never was any anger. He ended up not being the service manager that day and we were well staffed for once on an extraordinarily not busy Friday...
During one of the many down times I talked to a coworker who often works the line beside me. He's worked there a few more months than I have, so I felt I could bring up my thoughts as a new hire. I'm not one to express grievances, but I felt so strongly that day that I just had to ask how he endured the madness. He empathized with how gratuitous the workplace is, and on the topic of some of the coworkers and managers, what came from him were words of simple and straightforward wisdom: "Just be you. You just have to work and ignore everything else." His words made me feel like somehow my place in the Chipotle zoo had come to a rest and a new confidence welled up within on how Chipotle is...just work, and not a headache and a half. Soon enough, the day ended before I realized, and I was walking home, free...from Chipotle.
Overall, the day wasn't great by any means but not the worst. On the topic of my anger, I've read a few articles and books on how to deal with emotions and conflict. I try to take a spiritual, calm, and rational approach to such issues, but today I let my emotions get the best of me. Going forward I do think that I have to reevaluate the way I deal with workplace nonsense. As for the direction of this blog, I don't really see it going much farther than it already has. Is this the end? My end game goal is to reach April when school starts again and start working only part-time so my life doesn't feel so bogged down. Even while working full time there's so much more that I can do. Anyway, until next time. Thanks for reading.