Quite the shitstorm today huh. I imagine that when you woke up this morning you didn't believe that you would be out of a job. After all, you had called people a nigger and a faggot so many times before and nothing had happened. In fact, that is part of how you made your name in the early part of sc2, right? You were defeatured because of it, but you got yourself out there.
I've seen you try to sweep this away as "my friends were playing", or "this was a personal stream", or "I only do this when I smurf". Well, those are pretty lousy excuses.
I've also read people defending you saying that these words only have power if you give them power. Society and history begs to differ. Some people shrug it off as "it's the internet". Well, apparently that is a double edged sword considering the internet went to your sponsors. These excuses don't fly either.
I'm not really angry with you though. Hell, I can sympathize with you. A while ago I was streaming as well. Half cocked I went on iccup, got sniped, and lost a TvP to a 3 gate zealot all-in. Teaches me not to wall off, right? I proceeded to call the guy a faggot. It wasn't the first time I had used that to insult someone. I didn't actually mean he was gay, it just meant he was a jerk. You didn't mean to call someone a racial epitaph, it was just an insult right?
I've stopped using those terms. I am embarrassed that I used them. Let me share with you why. There is a guy named Brian Burke. He is a tough as nails hockey general manager for the biggest team in the world, the Toronto Maple Leafs. He has been in hockey his whole life, has a reputation for being a hard ass, and likes to stack his roster with guys that will punch you in the face. One tough son of a bitch.
His son, Brendan, came out as a gay hockey player a few years ago. He later passed away in a car accident. Brian Burke carries on his son's campaign for equal rights for gay people. He has a new campaign called @YouCanPlay which aims to raise awareness about homophobic language and its damage in sports. Locker rooms are tough places, and you hear a lot of it. Here is one of their PSA's.
Pretty slick right? HBO does good work. But that isn't the most convincing argument for me. Instead, watch this interview he did with the CBC about his son Brendan. I'll link you to the most important part (although you can watch the full video here, I recommend it.)
Here is the clip:
Two points from the video:
- Live your life so you don't have to take anything back in the future. Brian Burke didn't use gay slurs, so when his son came out he didn't have anything to apologize for. You don't want to have to apologize to your future wife who happens to be black about your behaviour today.
- Everyone is worth your time and respect. It makes life much more enjoyable.
Am I perfect? Nope. Everyone still makes mistakes. But it is the ability to grow from these mistakes that determines your character and what type of person you are. Hopefully this situation, as painful as it is now, helps you grow.