So I've finally decided that I'll be staying here in Oklahoma until next summer (I was debating whether or not to go back to New York when I turn 18 in October). Here are my reasons:
- I'd like to get money while I'm not paying rent now (1 year of work, monies!)
- I want to be with my family a little bit longer.
- As weird as it sounds, with friends not distracting me, I have more "drive" to get work done, which brings me to my final point being:
- I want to get in shape before I go back up.
Last week I began going to my local gym to blow off steam from Starcraft, then it hit me: why not take this time with no school or work (yet) to get into shape? See, I used to be in pretty good shape 6'4, 215 lb wrestler, but now I'm a 6'4, 230 lb lazycock. Just the way my body is built makes me look muscular, but I do have alot of fat I want to get rid of. ALOT of fat. I mean, I even had fat when I was in shape.
So basically, I'm going to the gym for 2 hours every day, weight training, then swimming, then sauna-ing to relax afterwards. I've always had this problem with self-confidence, especially just going to the gym, I feel like everyone is looking at me and it feels really bad, so I have no confidence normally, and not enough confidence to go to the gym and work it off (hard to explain the feeling = [ ) BUTTTTTTTTT
This gym near me has this baller ass secluded weight room that nobody ever goes to (aside from 1 or 2 people in there) and I feel really comfortable there. As much as I don't like swimming laps with other people around me, I do enjoy swimming enough to forget that aspect. And nobody ever goes into the sauna here so ;3
Also, my beard-growing capabilities are reaching a sufficient level, watch out motherfuckers.
Oh also a pretty cool point, I'm so happy that my dads G.I. bill money (the money he built up for college in the military, 32 years, never used any) can, has been transferred to me \:D/ This means that I'll be getting a sick cashflow as long as I'm a full time student (enough to get me through my 2 years at CC I plan on doing when I get back to NY WITHOUT needing a job to help pay rent). Didn't plan my next move after that 100% yet (I know I will be going to university, but not sure where yet).
Fuck I'm so happy right now ^___^